Phan One Shots

Christmas Without You

Just so you all know, this one shot is kind of sad... You may cry; others have apparently... so there's that.

Warning: Implication of suicide

Word count: 1400

Christmas Without You

"Hey Phil," Dan says sitting down on the ground. "I brought you this tree. You always loved Christmas, and, well, it's that time of the year again...Except this time it will be Christmas without you."

Dan sighs and pulls his knees up to his chest. Letting out a short laugh, Dan says, "I miss you. It's really not the same without you. You know, the flat doesn't look as festive. I just-"

Dan cuts off in order to keep the tears in. One deep breath and then Dan tries to make the mood happy again. "I'm freezing my ass off just for you. It must be like negative ten degrees out."

Dan looks around and sees others out, visiting their resting family and friends.although most of them have another person with them.

"I got you a present...I don't have it with me, but I know you'll see it. I know you're looking down on me and everyone else you cared about. Especially now."

Dan pauses again, but this time he can't stop the few tears that escape. He takes a shaky breath before going on.

"Then I'll join you. We can be together again, okay? I'll be with you again, and I'll be happy; I hope you will be too. I hope you still love me."

Dan stands up and brushes off his pants. He moves into a crouching position and fixes the Christmas tree. Next he presses his fingers to his lips then to the ground.

"I love you Phil."

Dan begins his walk home, hands in his pockets and head hanging. He avoids looking at the shops and festivity, as he is afraid of having a break down.

*

Dan watches as Phil skips along looking at all the lights. Seeing the smile on Phil's face makes the cold worth it.

"Don't you just love the lights?" Phil asks, moving to Dan's side.

Shivering, Dan responds, "Yeah, sure."

"Come on Dan! It's beautiful! Admit it."

"Mhmm."

"Dan." Phil pokes Dan's side and he jumps slightly.

"Don't do that."

"Admit that it's beautiful," Phil says, poking Dan again.

Dan presses his lips together stubbornly. "You asked for it," Phil says before running his fingers along Dan's neck.

In response, Dan moves a great distance to the left. "Phil!" Dan stops in his tracks and crosses his arms.

"Dan," Phil coos. "You didn't say it was beautiful. I warned you."

Dan doesn't respond. He doesn't make any attempt to keep walking either.

"Dan, come on."

Phil grabs Dan's arm and slightly pulls. Dan doesn't budge. Phil moves closer to Dan and tugs on him once more.

"Please?"

Dan doesn't look at Phil because he knows he'll give in the second he sees Phil's begging look.

"No more kisses for you if you keep this up."