Through the Years

Chapter 10

Louis sat in his bedroom and thought back to what the doctor had told him, was his whole life a lie? He didn't know what was real and what was just his imagination anymore.

He made up his own children because he couldn't get over the fact that they were both a miscarriage. He hallucinated months of sitting in a room and talking to them.

He let out a sigh and looked down at his wrists and saw that he still had the cuts. At least that part was real, however, he couldn't recollect when this happened. His whole memory was a complete blur, the only memories he had were from the past.

He climbed off his bed, and walked around his bedroom, he looked at his bedside table and saw a book on the edge of it, he opened it up slowly and saw pictures full of him and the boys, news paper articles from the past. He looked through them and started to carry on with the memories. Even though he didn't have anyone to share it with, he still wanted to remember.

.......

The boys solo careers started to lift off, Louis didn't talk to Zayn, Niall or Liam. They were all busy and hardly spoke. They really had gone their separate ways.

Louis and Harry had also hardly spoke, despite living together they came home at different times and hardly ever woke up together.

Days went by and Harry had spent most of his time in the studio. Louis had never felt so lonely before. Harry  was taking his time in writing his songs and Louis just wanted to spend time with Harry but it was as though he wasn't interested in Louis anymore. It was just about his music and only music.

Louis  let out a loud sigh and scrolled through his DMs until he came across a boy of his age maybe a little bit younger, praising his music. He said that he could help Louis write some songs and Louis replied back, he needed all the help he could get he was really struggling right now with any song writing.

So he decided to meet up with this guy called Daniel, however, Louis would soon realise that Daniel wasn't who he cracked up to be. Daniel didn't have any background in music. He was only interested in one thing and it wasn't helping Louis with music. But Louis was too naive to see what Daniel really wanted.

And by the time he realised it was too late, Daniel had leaked bad news to the press, he was the reason for Louis to lose everything. But the worst part of it was receiving the backlash from the boys and them finding out the truth about everything.

.....

Louis closed his eyes and took in a deep breath, he was dreading getting to the next part, everything he once loved was now taken away from him.

"Time for your medication Louis." The doctor said.

"Doctor can I ask you some questions?" Louis asked.

"Of course, what are they?"

"Was I in a boy band with One Direction?"

"Yes Louis, you were in a band with One Direction until you broke up three years ago, Zayn left first then the other boys followed."

"Right so that bits real, but it just seemed a lot longer than three years. Um..... What about Harry styles where is he?"

"Oh Louis, you really don't remember do you?"

"Remember what doctor?"

"A few nights ago you tried to call him and this boy answered the phone. Think his name was Finn. We had to take away your phone because you tried to kill your self, after you found out Harry had moved on."

"I just don't understand, how I managed to make up a whole new life for myself, how I made up my own house and children, and never once thought I was in hospital."

"It happens Louis, when you came in you were in such a confused state, some individuals who experience trauma don't want to live in the real world, so they make up the perfect world for them in their head."

"But it wasn't perfect, I still remember self harming, I remember me falling and hitting my head. It was all just a muddle."

"I'm afraid I don't really have an explanation for that. Unfortunately there is no explanation to how a humans mind reacts to certain things. But just know your doing well louis."

"How many times have you told me that I'm doing well doctor?"

"A few times but this is the longest you've been alert and not inside your own mind. So there's a lot of progress. I think your medication maybe helping." The doctor said handing Louis his medication.

Louis smiled and took it without question. He didn't know what he was taking but didn't dare to ask the question, the sooner he got better the quicker he could get out of here.

"One more thing doctor, in my memory I imagined I was with somebody, I don't know who they were, it was just a dark figure. Guiding me talking to me. Who was that?"

"That is also something I can't explain. But sometimes people see a dark figure and they believe it is their older self talking to them guiding them through the worst parts of their life, also before I go Louis, you have a visitor, we don't normally allow it but he said he was a close friend to you and well we think he may be able to help." The doctor said smiling, hoping this visitor could help Louis see none of this was his fault, after all they use to be best friends and Louis needed that.

Louis needed forgiveness, he needed that friend to tell him everything will be alright was alright, to take a step in the right direction he needed the world to know that he was wrong and that he was suffering for that consequence. He just hoped that whoever this friend was, that he was really here forgiveness.

"Maybe it's Harry, maybe he finally loves me again." Louis said excitedly and running out his bedroom and down the corridor.