Hey Kyle, how'd it go??
I opened the text and winced while I typed out my reply.
Ummm... well... I may or may not just have royally fucked up.
What!!! ?
Well there is the "may not" part...
.....
You did tell him..?
Please say you told him!!
Well... about that haha...
I may or not have freaked out a lot when it didn't go how I thought and....
AND!!!!
I might have said some hurtful things... Maybe??
Oh my freakin gods Kyle I'm coming over right now and you're going to tell me everything! Everything!!
...K
Not even half an hour went by before a sleek sports car gently glides into my driveway. Before the vehicle makes a complete stop a petite blonde girl in ridiculously tall high heels jumps out and makes her way towards me in the doorway.
"You are in so much trouble Kyle!"
I turn out of the doorway to make my escape, but despite her black spiked heels, she catches up to me and gives me a big slap across the face then gathers me up into a huge bear hug.
"Carolyn!!" I whine into her neck. "I'm ruined. I'm a small black castle all torn to rubble. The worst part of it all was that I put myself here. I destroyed my own castle!!"
"Oh shut up you drama queen and tell me what happened! Go on make me some tea and tell me how you screwed up my perfect plan to get you and Sid together."
After we had gone to the kitchen and made some earl gray tea Carolyn and I quietly make our way up the hardwood steps that lead to my bedroom. I carefully sit down on my bed while Carolyn wraps herself up in my soft green fuzzy blanket. For a few moments nothing can be heard, save the gentle slurping of caffeinated goodness and the scurrying of my hamster Phil, before Carolyn finally broke the silence.
"Spill it Kyle. Tell me what happened and then we can see if the problem can be fixed."
I take several deep breaths before I finally opened my mouth and tell her everything that had happened today with Sid.
It had started out rather normally, and all according to plan. See this boy named Sid recently came out as gay. That part didn't really matter, but in coming out Sid also revealed that he had a major crush on me. Not only did he do this but also asked me if he could talk to me later on that day. Here is where it gets a bit tricky. I have had a crush on Sid for as long as I could remember but I'm nowhere near ready to come out. That is where the problem occurs. Carolyn, being the genius that she is, made a plan to have him meet me in private so I can tell him how I feel and beg him not to tell anyone. The only problem was when we met up one of my football friends showed up, and I, being the scared idiot I am, said a whole bunch of mean things to Sid rather than telling him how I truly felt.
Almost immediately after I tell Carolyn what happened I feel a sharp sting on my cheek.
"That's for being an idiot and an asshole!!" she screams at me.
Instead of retaliating I simply look down and watch the pillow beneath me soak up the salty liquid I couldn't keep in.
"Hey Hun, Kyle sweetie, don't cry you can still fix this. All you need to do is man up a little bit, apologize to him, and beg for his forgiveness. He may not want to be with you, but he deserves to know the truth."
I let my body move up so my eyes could meet hers before I shakily nod in agreement.
"I ...I I'll do it. Tomorrow I will meet him at his locker and apologize. I just wish I hadn't fucked up so bad."
"Cheer up Kyle, Sid's a really nice guy who knows maybe he'll still want to go out with you."
"You're right! Maybe when I tell him the truth it will all go smoothly."
"Maybe", was all she said before going back to her steaming brown liquid and leaving me to clean up my mess.
