Your Guardian Angel | Jenlisa

Chapter 18: Let's

L I S A

the first day of our camping went quite fast. We're just talking that day, getting to know with each other.

All that day, I'm expecting that jennie should be with me.

But almost all of her attention was on kai oppa that she didn't notice me at all.

I feel like i didn't exist.

I feel like i'm being ignored.

I was sad at first but when ji eun sat next to me and talked to me, I forgot that i was hurt at that moment.

She make me forget my problems, and all i'm doing that day was to smile and laugh with her.

And right now, it's the second day of our camping today. Suzy sunbae's plan for today is to swim on the river near at this forest.

She said that there's nothing to worry about because all of our senior here is familiar to this place.

We are now walking down the river, we're following suzy sunbae and me and ji eun we're just behind of them.

I startled when ji eun grabbed my hand, i turn my head to look at her and she just smiled at me.

"Are you alright?" She ask, her voice filled with worriedness.

What is the point of lying right? I shook my head and smiled sadly at her.

"I'm not." I honestly said.

Until this day, jennie and i still haven't talked.

Yes, i sleep with her in our tent. But even though I'm with her, i feel so far away from her.

I was next to her, but i couldn't even hold her, i couldn't even hug her.

She's what i was thinking that night before i sleep, but her?

She was thinking of him. they were  calling each other until dawn even though they both knew that their tent was just so close to each other.

She sleep with a smile last night, but me?

I sleep with a broken heart.

She breathed deeply and nodded.

"it's because of her, am i right?" she asked before she look at jennie who's laughing while she's holding kai's hand.

I also looked at the two of them and forced myself to smile, "yes, i feel like she's ignoring me."

I sighed and looked down. "But who am i to ask for her attention right? I'm just her bestfriend." I mumbled.

"Lisa, look at me." She ordered.

I lift my head to look at her, we stopped walking and we just stared into each other's eyes.

she cupped both of my cheeks and she looks at me seriously.

"I know you love her, but i need to be selfish this time. So i hope you will let me."

She bit her lip before speak again, "for today, can you don't think of her and just pay your attention to me?"

"I know you love her, but the more you look at them together, the more you will get hurt and sad you become. So let me be with you, and focus on me, i promise that i will make you happy. But let me, because i can't do that if you will just get hurt again and again each time you focus on the two of them."

I started to tear up while looking at her, "I'm so sorry ji eun."

am i so selfish that i forgot her feelings for me and what she told me last night?