Beyond The limits

chapter 3- happiness never last forever

I was shocked by the sight of Brian laying down on the floor with blood stained all over. I was shocked. I couldnt move my legs .  I was shaking. I did not know what to do. I managed to rush near him and i started to scream for help. Tears were flowing down on my cheeks.

Thank God that someone heard me and came near . for the next few minutes the only thing i could hear was the sirens of ambulance. We reached the hospital and brian was getting treated.

It has been 2 hour and the doctors said that there is progress in his health. Eva and Kezia rushed to the hospital .

"what happened y/n?" they asked in unison. when i looked at them i could see something different in both of their face and eyes. I could see care, concern and shock in Kezia's eyes while i could see something different in Eva's eyes . I left my thoughts there and answered to them.

I explained to them what happened and for a long time there was a silence. then eva spoke.

"it is all my fault" we both were confused by what she said. we both tried to calm her down because she was sobbing so hardly and then all of a sudden she started to apologize to me. I asked her what happened and all I could see was guilt in her eyes and then she started to say us what happened .

"y/n. Brian ...he just...just confessed to me early this morning" what the helll....My mind was blank. I couldnt move . I was suffocating.

"w-what?" I asked her

"i'm so sorry y/n. He confessed to me and i rejected him and he said me that he would hurt himself and i said to him that i dont care" she continued while i peacefully listened to her without interepting her.

"I thought he was kidding me and would never do such a thing. I'm so sorry y/n it is all my fault"

I dont know why i felt sympathy towards her at that moment. I looked at Kezia and she was probably feeling sorry for me but when Eva told me all these there were not even a single drop of tear in my eyes. one could say that i was brave.

and then i opened my mouth and asked eva a question" Do you have feelings for him?" there were no emotions in my face while i asked her this.

"I -I - yes, I'm so sorry y/n."and then she hugged me and i hugged her back and said" we can't always control our feeling".she looked at me confused and i smiled genuienly to her.

2 DAYS LATER--------------------

its been todays in the hospital. Eva and i were staying there because Brian's parents were abroad and couldn't come.

i  saw Brian opening his eyes slowly . I smiled at him and called Eva . Eva rushed to him and hugged so tightly but his eyes were on me.there was an awkward silence in the room and i broke it.

"Are you okay Brian?" i asked him. It was the first time in the last 2 year that i called him his real name and he knew at that instant that i know everything now

"I'M sorry y/n." he said

"it is okay Brian" i replied.

"i never thought this would end like this . It was just that all the time I needed you near me, you was not there with me and it was probably because you was behind that BTS and the only person who was near me was Eva.."

"it is okay Brian i can understand you"

"so, then best friends/" he asked me and suggested a handshake and Eva was also looking at me pleading to accept it.

"yes, best friends" i said him and shaked his hand. ' now, i will give you both some privacy" by saying that i went out of the hospital and headed to my home.

That night was one of the worst nights in my life. I did not cry because i did not wanted my tears to eat me up at that moment instead i was thinking so deeply. And then i made a decision " i will stop stanning BTS from now on if they were the reason behind all these then i will change . from now onwards i wont be an army or a fangirl" i said to myself and tried to sleep.

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( end of chapter 3}