My Roommate

Part 13: Finding Out

It's been five weeks since me and ash went to beach where we met Noah. Me and Noah have gotten a lot closer over the past few weeks. We've even went on a date. It wasn't a fancy date but it was a date. He took me out to get some ice cream.

He comes to see me on the weekends after I've finished everything for my classes. We hang out or go to the gym or just walk around the park with Mac.

Ash has been a little moody and different the past month. I don't know if it's where I've been hanging out with Kayley and Noah more than I am him or not. Him and Luke are good buddies now though. They are always out practicing football and leaving me and Kayley to practice volleyball.

I've finally come to terms with my aunts passing. I'm glad she is no longer suffering. Although it hurts me to think that's she's gone, I know she's in a better place and I'm thankful for that.

Right now Noah and I are practicing volleyball in the gym. We are peppering back in forth when I suddenly feel dizzy. I let the ball bounce to the ground as I walk over to the bench for a drink of water. I sit down since I'm too dizzy to stand. The gym starts spinning around me and before I know it everything is black.

"Nikki, Nikki. Can you hear me?" Noah is frantically calling to me. "Are you okay? What just happened?"

"I'm fine. I think I just practiced too much without enough protein. Can you take me home?"

"Sure." Noah drives me back to the dorms and helps me up to my room. Ash is gone out for the evening so i grab a protein bar and lay in bed to watch movies.

Eventually I must've fallen asleep because when I wake up my laptop is still on my lap and it's 3am. I glance over and see ash sleeping in his bed. He must've came in after I went to sleep. I set my laptop over on the table and went back to sleep.

The next morning I ran for the trash can and started throwing up. I ended up waking ash up and he came over to hold my hair back. I wanted to argue and tell him to get out of the room but if I spoke vomit would come out and I really didn't want that.

After 30 minutes of puking my guts up, ash convinced me to go to the doctors. Ash said he would drive me just to make sure I went. I hate doctors and do everything to stay away from them.

"Alright I'll be waiting in the waiting room for when your done. Try to not puke on the doctor." Ash laughed.

"Yeah, yeah. Very funny." I flip him off and walk down the hallway the nurse is leading me down. She stops at a room and stops me to check my weight and height.

"Okay. What seems to be the problem?" The nurse asks.

"Well yesterday I passed out while I was training for volleyball and then I haven't been able to stop puking this morning."

"Okay. I wrote it all down. I'm going to have to take blood so we can run tests and then the doctor can come in." I nod and turn away as she takes my blood. I'm not the biggest fan of needles.

I had to wait 15 minutes for the bloodwork to come back. After the minutes were up the doctor came in.

"Have you been experiencing any cramping or weird feelings in your stomach?" He asks.

"Not really."

"Okay. When was your last period and are you sexually active?"

"I'm not sexually active. My last period was two months ago."

"Does your period normally skip months?"

"No. Not really. It has a few times. I'm not the best at keeping track of it all." I shrug.

"Well the tests came back and it said that your pregnant. Congratulations."

"What? No. I can't be pregnant."

"Our tests are always accurate. When you check out I will right a note telling the receptionist to make you and appointment with your obgyn. I have other patients so I'll see you soon."

The doctor leaves me in the room to process what all he just said. I'm pregnant. I'm having a baby. A living creature is inside me right this second. I haven't even been having sex. How the hell am I pregnant?

It takes me about 10 minutes of just sitting there trying to figure everything out. It has to be Ash's. We must've had sex that night we couldn't remember anything.

I'm pregnant with Ashton Blake's baby. Oh my lord. I'm 19 and I'm pregnant. I don't have a job. I live in a 130 square foot dorm room.

The nurse comes back to get me. I must have taken too long. "Your appointment with your gyn is next Friday at 4pm. They will do a scan and be able to tell you how far along you are and make sure the baby is healthy. Bye."

I went and met ash in the waiting room. I had no idea on how to tell him. And definitely no idea how to tell Noah. I thought me and Noah might have started something good but the baby ruins that. I can't be with him and be having Ash's baby.

How do I tell ash? Telling someone they are going to be a dad is hard. Especially when they don't even remember having sex with you.

I get pulled out of the thoughts when ash meets me and we walk out to his truck. "So is everything okay?"

"Oh uhh- yeah. It's just a um- virus." He just shrugs. I didn't know what to say but I knew I couldn't tell him yet. He's going to be angry. He's 19 and he don't need the responsibility of a baby.

If I tell him he might decline it or he might refuse to say it's his since neither of us remembers the night it happened. Should I even keep the baby? I mean I have options. Abortion? Adoption? I don't think I can kill my kid. It's a living thing and getting an abortion would be like killing another person. I don't think I'd be able to give my baby away either. It needs me, the real and strong mom.

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Dun, dun, dun. Nicole is pregnant. What do you think so far?