A Diamond in the Rough

Words Can Hurt

People don't believe that words can bother you. You know the old saying "Sticks and Stones May brake my bone but words don't hurt" well that's a lie words do hurt especially when it's repeated more than once and that can make you feel horrible and guarded. I am one to guard myself once the same womb is reopened. Hunter words ringed in my ear all night "Why are you so guarded".

But if I could face to it I would go to me as a child right ..the age 11 I changed my mom was freshly married and things were going good she was happy but a few months down the line it changed the good relationship she once had was toxic and while he was with her he couldn't stand me he said I was jerk and an asshole but I didn't care. Her toxic relationship lasted 5 years and grew worse and worse I hated him for what he did to my mom and how he treated me two years in she gave birth to triplets Macy Matthew and Luke we didn't know about Luke until the birth he came out kicking. Anyways we moved out to a apartment for the safety of the kids and he filed for divorce since she wanted out so bad. It changed her the free spirit I knew was gone and darkness was born.

She blamed me for the divorce.

Nia: Had you not been such a ass to him maybe he would wanted to stay

Those words pieced like a knife I am now 16 and all I wanted all I need was my mommy be she left. But I still was a good daughter and loved her because I knew she was hurting so I said to myself with time she will get better. So I moved on got my first job and had my first boyfriend Deleon he was hot and smooth and I was attracted to him. But it wasn't long before I realized he was toxic he didn't know how to keep his dick in his pants and sadly he was my first in everything I wasted two years trying to get him love me and understand that I was all his but he didn't care and his "I'm sorry" ran out even though he made it hard to move on I did but something was still missing .. Love. Deleon even told if I would change my ways he would too because I was an asshole. I knew my problem came from my mom she had my heart until she switched on me so now every time someone flips on me once I mentally remove myself from feeling anything for them cause if my mom could do it so could anyone.

[Ring, Ring]

Nevaeh: Hello

Macy: Vaeh

Nevaeh: Hi Macy honey!!

Macy: I miss you

Nevaeh: I miss you too. I will be back soon

Matthew: How long is soon

Nevaeh: I will be back this weekend Matt

Luke: I miss you too

Nevaeh: I miss you too Lukey Pooh

Macy: Yaayyyy

Neaveh: Y'all need to go to bed do you know what time it is

Matthew: It's only 3am

Nevaeh: Boy!!!! Go to bed all of you love y'all and see y'all when I get back

Macy, Matthew, Luke: Love you too

Just bad they better be glad I a not there. While I started to think I get a text

Hunter: Lily

Oh my God should I text back I got butterflies and I am filled with so much joy oh my God!!!!

Hunter: Lily are you awake I can't sleep

Deep breath

Hunter: I guess you are sleep well sweet dreams

Lily: I am up.. Why can't you sleep

Hunter: ..... Can I FaceTime you

FaceTime me!!!! I mean what do he want and why do he want to FaceTime me!!