Me and Leah Harper, we had been just 'friends' for a while, excuse the kisses and the sex. I felt bad, she didn't deserve this. She deserved a million times better, she deserved the world, I wanted to just walk away from it but she meant everything to me, it was dangerous as well, I still hadn't told her that I was part of a gang, the leader of a gang. And if other gangs knew what she meant to me she would be dead within seconds. I hate myself for it. I put her into danger and hurt her, we've decided we don't want to be a couple I had to lie to her and say that I wasn't ready for a relationship. I which I could tell her the truth, but honestly, I'm scared and ashamed. Scared that she'll leave me, ashamed that I didn't tell her and that I'm part of a gang.
"Hey look it's the love of your life" Ace laughs
Ace has been my best friend since forever, my second hand man in the gang, Ace was always getting into trouble and always has his dick in a girl, a player I think girls call it.
Me I got into more trouble than anyone, bad ass, bad boy you name it, I was the same as ace but with only Leah, she was my first and my only, I was her first and hopefully her only.
I watch her laughing as she pulls up in her truck with her brother, Darren Harper, he gets out and runs off to his jock friends. Leah however takes her time to get out of the car.
She's wearing a pair of dark jeans and a lacy white top with a denim jacket over the top with some chequed Vans, her yellow Kanken backpack is on her back, a cigarette in her mouth, a Starbucks coffee in her hand, her iPhone 11 that I got her for Christmas with the avacado matte case in her back pocket and in her other hand the lanyard with her truck keys and flat keys on it.
She hangs the lanyard around her neck and straitens her light ombre waves over the top. She takes the cigarette out of her mouth and blows out a smoky breathe. She didn't wear makeup, she wasn't all popular but any guy knew that she was forbidden and most girls already know that I am not going to date, fuck or even kiss them.
The school grounds are silent as the guys gawk at her and the girls stare at her with utter jealousy. She walks over to me and I whistle at her. Ace smirks before continuing to kiss the new girl.
"Oh darn! I thought she was gonna be nice" Leah whines about the girls
"You think all girls are bitches" I scoff.
"That's so true" Leah smirks
The girl rolls her eyes stamps her feet and walks off.
"Hey! She was nice" Ace whines wrapping his arms around Leah.
Leah blows smoke into his face and he coughs stepping backwards
"I don't like hugs" Leah sighs
"Only with the coolest dude around" I say hugging her. I take a blow of her cigarette and blow it out before kissing her neck and handing her the cigarette back, she takes the final blow and just hands it to me.
"Hot girl!" Ace says before running of to the headmistress's daughter
"I want to go home" she whines.
"No you want to have sex" I confirm.
She scoffs
"With you!" She smirks sarcastically
"It's on baby" I smirk before chasing her to her truck. She dumps her bag in the back and jumps in the drivers seat, I get in the passenger's seat.
***
Leah Harper's POV
I roll over to face Liam, I trace his jaw with my index finger, he grins happily closing his eyes.
"I love having sex with you" Liam smiles kissing my nose.
"Eh your okay" I say
Liam laughs and I join in. Liam's phone begins to ring on my bedside cabinet.
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT" he snaps angrily.
He hates it when he gets a phone call whilst being with me.
"Oh shit... Yeah.... No.. okay I'm on way... I just fucking told you I'm on my way you price of shit" he talks to the phone whilst pulling up his trousers. He tosses his phone onto my bed.
"Is that where you dump all your worthless things, my bed" I sigh
"No baby! Your not worthless your everything to me, please never say something stupid like that again" he begs me, picking me up making me wrap my legs around his torso, I kiss him, pulling his lips further towards me.
"Leah come on baby I've got to go" he whines. I trace my finger over his abs.
"You'll come back tonight though" I sigh playing with his hair between my fingers
"Don't wait up for me, but yes I'll be here" he sighs pecking my lips before picking up his t-shirt.
I mumble in response before pulling the sheets back over me and going onto my phone, I hated this, why couldn't we be a thing, he claimed he wasn't ready for a relationship. It seems whenever I'm with him he gets a "really important" phone call and has to leave for about 3 hours to then later come back bruised and bloody.
"Goodnight gorgeous" he says kissing my temple, I don't react.
"Let the dogs in" I say in response. Keeping an emotionless face
He smiles and nods before walking out of the room. I hear the back door open and close before two dogs run in jumping up on my bed.
Benji was a blue merle Australian dog and Jay was a black and white Springer spaniel. Bullet was a German shepherd.
I cuddle up with them and get some of my studying done on the computer.
Coffee, study, scroll, cuddle, coffee, study, scroll, cuddle, coffee study, scroll, cuddle.
The next three hours continue this loop of drinking coffee, studying for my final exams, scrolling through my phone and cuddling the dogs. After a while I decide to put my studying equipment in the drawer of my bedside cabinet, I put the dogs back in the main room and feed them their food. I leave a note for Liam telling him to lock the door when he comes back. I walk back into my bedroom and lie down
***
I hear some glasses clinking together in the kitchen. I wearily yawn and step out of bed putting my slippers on and a dressing gown to cover my naked body. I trod out into the kitchen quietly. The dogs are looking into the kitchen. I walk into the kitchen to find Liam resting against the counter with pain killers in one hand and a glass of water in his other hand, blood is trickling down his face, a black eye and bruised nuckles, you can only just see it in the dark. I gasp.
"Baby!" Liam says putting the glass down after swallowing his pills. He pulls me into a hug. I drag him into my room and grab my first aid kit.
"I'm sorry" he says
"For what?" I ask starting to cleanse his face
"Everything babygirl" he cries. He actually cries. Tears stream down his face. After cleansing his face I put a plaster on his cut and some bruise cream on his bruises and his nuckles.
"Hey, hey don't cry" I whisper straddling him wiping his tears. I kiss his lips gently and he smiles.
"No! No You can't kiss me!" He snaps pushing me off him.
"Why not!?" I ask beginning to cry myself.
"I'm a bad man, Leah, I'm a bad bad man" he says stepping away from me.
I splutter out a laugh
"A bad man" I laugh again.
"I should've known. You would just use me for sex! You would just use me to make you look better. YOUR SICK! YOUR TWISTED! YOUR A FUCKING TWAT! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!" I scream at him
"That's not what you say when your fucking me" he growls
"Well that's in the past you dickhead. Because you are never going to have my concent!" I snap back. His face drops.
"I deserve this" he nods to himself before walking out of the door. I lock the front door behind him and cry
