Maya is all alone. She works her ass of to have a place of her own. She is depressed. She gets bullied at school.
She started to self harm and gets suicidal at times. She is bi and no one knew. She hates her body and starves herself because people t...
Maya was currently a sophomore she was 16 and had a apartment where she lived alone.
Let me start when she was a kid. Her dad was a pussy who left when she was six, she barely remembers him. He never wanted to be a dad and he thought she would be better off. But she always thought she was not enough for him to stay she blamed herself for him leaving she wished he stayed so would have someone to protect her.
Her mom changed after mayas dad left she would date random guys and let them stay with her and her daughter witch she will come to regret and feel guilty for doing so. Her mom started to drink real bad when maya was 14. Mayas mom always wanted maya to have the best life. It was hard for her mother to stay sober and to keep her daughter happy she tried her best to give her a good life with what little they had.
Maya POV
I love my mom but I needed to be on my own and away from all the men she brought into her life they were all bad and 3 of them did stuff to me and I had to make it stop i could not let them keep making me feel like a useless piece of garbage
Anyways I did some things I'm not proud of for money but you do what you got do. But if I really need to I would do it again cause it wasn't that bad mostly dangerous.
I was a part time drug dealer with my cousins and I got enough to get this apartment so I told my oldest cousin I found a new job he was cool with it and I said I will always have a job with him.
I now work as a waitress at BWW at the mall after school it pays good and a get nice tips it covers the bills you know so I'm happy about that.
My depression gets in the way of my happiness sometimes. I get real suicidal at times and feel like giving up some days and just fade away. I don't have anyone really. I have one friend she's nice her name is Taylor but she mainly hangs out with her cheerleader friends. I click with her more then those girls. I did try and become friends with them freshman year but they fat shamed me and tay had to stand up for me but it's whatever I don't want fake bitches as friends anyways.
I never really dated anyone. But I like girls and guys but I just don't trust people anymore. The shit I been through kinda fucked me up. Most Girls are bitches and most guys are creeps or assholes
But that's me the "fat" loner girl that no one likes I could care less I just need to tough it out 2 more years without killing my self or dropping out. I can do it
This is what I imagine Mayas body type ( I just wanna say you are beautiful inside and out don't let nobody tell you otherwise because you are beautiful no matter what size you are. I know it can get tough and you may be struggling with self image trust me I Struggle with it everyday and I know that one day I'll say fuck it and will eventually not care because people will say and do whatever that want even if you do what say people are gonna find a way to hate. So embrace your Beauty baby)
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A/n: I'm be dead ass this is probably gonna suck ass but enjoy and if you're gonna be judged mental you can click out cause I don't need no 12 year old saying they don't like this book. Anyways I'm talk about some deep shit if you ain't mature enough leave‼️
