shotgun • michael clifford

{thirty days before}

After school officially ended,I called Is.I needed someone to talk to,I needed someone to tell me that things get better and that I don't have to give up.

My friend picked up and said she would be at the playground in 15 minutes,so I started walking.

Is and I always met at the playground,I'm not sure why,but it was just our thing to be there.It's been a while because since she was dating that dude,she barely had time for me anymore.

While waiting on her,I sat down on the swing.After a few minutes I saw Is her black jacket and soon after that I picked up a smile,a worried smile.

"Hi Mikey,everything okay?" She asked as she wrapped her tiny arms around me.

"No,no,nothing is okay." I spat out and held her close to me.

After a few moments I let her go and we went to the swings.She asked me what happened and I told her about Jack.

"That's such a dick move!" She spat out and kicked her black boots to the ground.

"Just don't listen to him,he's a real asshole and he doesn't deserve your attention,Mikey." She said and she looked me in the eyes,and I noticed a sad glare.

"You know he was right,I never was the popular pretty guy,I never had allot of friends,I never really was good enough." I softly mumbled.

Isabela quickly stood up and looked at me.

"Michael,you might aren't the popular guy,you might aren't the person with the biggest amount of friends,but you have a beautiful personality.

Your personality isn't as rotten as Jack.And you may don't have allot of friends,but you have me,Michael.

And I promise that I'll always be here for you,no matter what happens okay?So what if you have 30 friends but they won't even be there for you?

Don't you rather have 1 and be sure that that person will always be there?Because I do,Michael."

And with that my eyes started watering ,Is hugged me and she rubbed my back.I felt her sobbing a little,too.She was so goddamn right,but words always hurt me allot.

"You're right Is,I'm sorry.Let's get some ice cream,shall we?" I said wiping away her tears and she nodded,smiling with the smile that made me happy.

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After eating our ice cream Is had to go home,so I said bye and went home,aswell.I decided to play some video games,a thing I've been doing for the last 5 years of my life.As I already told you,I wasn't good at making friends or being social,so I was kind of cooped away in my room.

My parents always tried to make me go out,but I only would do that with Is.They liked her allot,they thanked her basically every time she came around for not letting me down like my other friends did.

I was thankfull too,although I didn't say it allot.And I loved my parents allot and I was sad that all I did was disappointing them,but I worked hard on getting better,I really did.But my anger problems were just getting worse every day.

I said I was going to write a LONG CHAPTER BUT ITS CHRISTMAS BREAK AND THERE IS SO MUCH TO DO IM SORRY ILY GUYSSSS (((( iM @froyoftmendes on twitter if u wanna check that out ))))

I will update every friday!!!! Seeya x