Loving him is so wrong!

Chapter twenty-two

Chandler
Frustrated. I am sexually frustrated as fuck! What Alana pulled tonight has me so mad I can't even sleep. I just keep on thinking about her and how bad I needed her right now. Also that question she asked me about thinking about Monica had me thinking too. I mean I know I've said this a lot but I'm not in love with her anymore I know it. I try and try but to be honest I will be fine if she decided to leave me. Don't get me wrong I love my wife but I'm not in love with her. Alana has my heart now and she's all I want. Fuck it I'm going in there and I'm going to get some. I grabbed Avery who was waking up anyways and walked into Alana's room.
"Is he hungry already I felt like I just fed him." She said in a groggy voice
"Yes pull out your tit" i said making her laugh as I gave her the baby. I watched as she pulled her shirt down to feed the baby and I wished it was me sucking them instead of our son. I got into bed on the other side of the bed and she looked at me like I was crazy but I ignored her stares. She opened her mouth to say something but then she closed it and just put Avery back in his bed.
"Why you in my bed Chandler?" She said looking at me.
"Shut up" i said as I grabbed her face and kissed her. She moaned into my mouth but then pulled back from me. I pulled her back towards me and got onto of her and looked her in the eyes.
"Chandler seriously move!" She said but I was ignoring her kissing her neck.
"You want me to stop tell me to stop and I'll stop." I whispered in her ear. Alana loves when you whisper in her ears it's her weakness. She opened her legs wider letting me know her answer. I smiled and started trailing kisses down her body making her moan with every kiss. I stopped when I got to her pussy. Her pussy was so pretty to me.
"Chandleeeeer noooooo stop it."she moaned again I ignored her and started eating her out.
"Our secret. I won't tell if you don't I already told you." I moaned into her pussy. She nodded her head and pulled my head closer to her. I inserted a finger inside her and heard her moan louder. Alana push my head further and closed her legs around my head. I couldn't breathe so I pulled back and looked up at her.
"Shit you trynna kill me with your legs" I laughed
"Chandler fuck me already" she screamed
I laughed at her and then put both of her legs in a pretzel and inserted myself inside of her. We both moan at the same time and I enjoyed the feeling of her tightening up her grip around my dick. I put all of my weight on her and thrusted my hips real slow and deep trying not to cum fast. It's been a minute since I got some and being inside of her had me feeling like I was going to bust quick.
"Chandler do it harder!" She moaned
Alana was a tiny girl but she loved rough sex and she loved getting sex injuries. I don't know why but it was her thing. I moved in a fast pace and rotating my hips and doing hard thrusts making her gasp for air with every stroke. I was lost in my own world when all of the sudden Avery started crying.
"Shit, stop let me get him" Alana said but I wasn't stopping
"We gotta do this quick. He's fine three more minutes and I'm done" i grunted as I picked her up and put her on top of me. I knew if we stopped right now she wouldn't have let me back in. Alana started bouncing and rocking on me and with every bounce I matched her speed and thrusted up. I felt myself on the verge of cumming inside her and I knew she wasn't on any type of birth control. She didn't know I knew but I overheard her and Zara talking about it on the phone.I tightened my grip around her body and thrusted faster and harder inside her getting ready to cum.
"Chandler let me go! Let me hop off" she said tapping on my arm but it was too late I was already cumming. I bit down on her arm and did one more hard thrust inside her making my whole body shake and hers. I let go of her and fell back on the bed catching my breath while she grabbed Avery from the bed. Fucking finally after two long months maybe more I finally got some. When I looked at her I could tell she was thinking about something.
"What's on your mind?" I asked
"I'm so damn stupid! Chandler you living here isn't going to work out." Alana said
"Why not? The hell I do?"
"This!"
I rolled my eyes and got out the bed. I'm so over her and this I want you but when we do it she wanna cry about it.
"Alana you are old enough to say no I'm over you saying you don't want me but it's clear as day that you want me. So stop trying to put all the blame on me it's not like I'm forcing you to fuck me! You like fucking me you like telling me I'm not going to get any then turn around and give it to me! YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH ME!" I yelled at her.
She's pissing me off about all of this and it's getting fucking old. I looked at her and she started crying. I don't care anymore she always wants to cry when someone tells her the truth.
"I'm in love with Terrence not you!"
"Bullshit and you know it's bullshit! You moved on from me so fast you wanted to prove to yourself that you don't love me but no matter how many times you yell that you love him it's not true. You are forcing yourself to believe that you're so over me that you went after the first guy to tell you that he likes you. If you were so call in love with him you wouldn't have done any of this now tell me I'm wrong I'm waiting!"
She sat there in silence I knew that I didn't need her to tell me anything because she knew I was right. Sure she's over being on the side but she's not over me.
"What about Monica?" She said to me.
"What about her? It's obvious that I haven't been thinking about her for a while. I know that I'm no longer in love with her I'm in love with you."
"But you won't leave her!" She countered back at me.
"She was with me for twenty eight years and married twenty of those years. How do I leave that?" I asked her.
"UNBELIEVABLE!!! You are unbelievable!!!"
She rolled her eyes at me and put Avery down and walked out her room. I followed behind her and grabbed her by the arms.
"I'm sick of being the bad guy in this Alana. You are just as bad as I am in all of this. You don't care about Monica or Terrence feelings admit it!"
"Yes I do!" She said as she snatched her arm away from me.
"I'm calling bullshit again! Be real with me!"
"I am being real with you! I want you to find a place because it's not working out." She said opening up the refrigerator.
I walked up to her and got real close to her. I looked her right in the eyes and didn't say anything. She tried to break eye contact with me but I wasn't budging.
"Say you're in love with Terrence. Look me in the eyes and tell me you're in love with him and not me and I'll move out"
"I-i- I'm"
"I'm listening" I said leaning closer to her.
"I can't tell you that." She finally said putting her head down and crying. I grabbed the bottom of her chin and made her look up at me.
"And why can't you tell me?" I asked
"Because I love you." She said mumbling
"I can't hear you!"
"Because Chandler I'm in love with you! Are you happy now? You're right but I'm not going to sit on the sidelines and wait for you!" She screamed at me.
She brushed past me and walked into her room and sat down in her bedroom and was crying even harder. I walked in the room and pulled her down so we could cuddle. She was hesitant at first but then she eventually accepted my embrace.
"I'm not trying to hurt you Alana or control you. I want you to make the best decision but you know it's not him."
"I like him though." She said into my chest.
"Y'all moves too fast that relationship is going to crash and burn before it started. It already has."
"I'm tired I'm going to sleep."
She rolled the other way and fell asleep and I was quickly behind her.