Journey to Sanity

Chapter IV: The Journal

It took me more than just an hour to calm myself down with the realization that I’ll be stuck here for a little while longer. Panic surrounded my whole body when it struck me that I could die without even knowing it; but what’s worse is that I get to be stuck being friends Celeste and her gang. That’s my reason why I can’t lose hope on finding a way out of here. There must be some way out or at least a way to send a message to the real Starr to stop this program and let me out.

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       “What were you thinking? Why were you about to commit suicide?” Starr exclaimed while pacing side to side in front of me. I couldn’t form a reasonable excuse out of the mess I got myself into. I was hesitating if I would tell her the truth; it might send a message to the real Starr or it might get me in more trouble. Oh, what the heck; I’m still in trouble anyways. I was about to speak when she interrupted me that left me baffled. “Are… Are you and Knight fighting again?” She said sincerely and carefully like the topic was too sensitive. Who’s Knight? Why would she even think that I would try to commit suicide because of a guy? I couldn’t keep the questions forming in my head to myself anymore so I asked her directly. “Who is this Knight you’re talking about? And why would I commit suicide for him?” I said innocently. She momentarily looked at me with surprise then immediately replaced with worry and sadness. “So it’s that bad, huh? You know, denying him as your boyfriend is still acceptable but to actually deny knowing him is a bit too harsh. Don’t you think? After all, we did fought each other for his affection in the past.” She giggled softly. You could sense how painful that past was from how she said it. I couldn’t believe what I’ve just heard. I stared at her in such disbelief. I love my sister so much that I wouldn’t even think of competing with her for someone else’s affection. I was about to say something but then, as if it was planned, the doorbell rang. Starr let out a big sigh before saying, “He’s right on time again, huh?” “Who is?” I said, still not realizing whom she was referring to. She heaved a deep sigh then said, “I’m opening the door for him. Don’t prolong this argument of yours.”

       Starr wasn’t alone when she came back to our living room. A man came rushing towards me and engulfed me into a huge and tight hug. “Hey, babe. I heard that wretched Nina bullied you again. I came rushing here as soon as my first class ended. It’s alright now; I’m here for you.” He said sweetly then kissed me on the forehead while caressing my hair. I looked at Starr, hoping to get an explanation or an answer to what’s going on but she just gave me a sad smile then shrugged. That sad smile she gave made me realize who the guy in front of me was; it was Knight, the guy Starr mentioned earlier. I studied the man’s features.

Knight had bright green eyes and honey-blonde hair. He has just the right type of body built; looks a bit athletic but not too muscular. At first glance, no one would ever believe or eve just think that a guy like him is going out with a nerd like me. I couldn’t believe it myself. I felt myself admiring him more and more the longer I stared at him; no wonder Starr likes him too. He has that weird irresistible charisma. I stopped staring the moment I remembered that Starr likes him; I just can’t see her hurt. I was about to go upstairs and lock myself in my room when Starr leaned to me and whispered, “I’ll leave you two alone so you could patch things up. Don’t screw this, okay?” She pat my shoulder before finally leaving us. I looked at Knight again and thought that I don’t see any familiarity to his face. He doesn’t look like anyone from the real world. Nevertheless, I didn’t know what to say to him because, technically, this is the first time I saw him and will talk to him. All I could answer to everything that he said was giggles, nods, and smiles. He seems really fun to talk to.

  

Knight was in the middle of telling me how Janine, Nina’s best friend, looks like a pig with human legs. I can’t remember who she is in the real world. We were laughing when we heard the front door open; I thought it was only Starr or Silver back from school so I didn’t bother to look. Soon enough, a voice spoke from the direction of the living room entrance. “Looks like you two are having fun. Why aren’t you in school?” said a familiar voice. I turn to look at who spoke but as soon as I did, I shuddered. I couldn’t move. I felt like a statue, as hard as a rock, at my current spot.  I had mixed emotions at the discovery. All I could say was, “Y-You’re back.” “Of course we’re back, we always come back on Mondays,” said another familiar voice. Soon enough, the other familiar voice emerged to the scene. “M-Mom? Is that really you? And D-Dad? I-I-I can’t believe it. A-Am I hallucinating or maybe I’m dreaming?” My hands were shaking as I tried to reach for them. Of course I knew the answer but I miss them too much. They frowned at my question and replied with another, “Are you okay, honey? Maybe you should rest for a while.” I ran up to them and hugged them tightly. Even if all of this is just an illusion, I’ll let myself get carried away just this once. 

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      I decided to have a journal to help me keep track of the changes and sudden events that might happen here that could lead me to a solution on how to get out. This may just be a simple puzzle I need to solve. I’ve written everything I have observed since I woke up here to a simple notebook.

        It’ll help me remember that this world isn’t real, that it is just made up. I will clearly need a reminder because of that discovery earlier.