My Roommate

Part 15: Future Plans

Ash didn't come back to the dorm last night. I laid curled up in the blankets while I cried all last night. I don't even know how I can have any tears left. I roll out of bed and run towards the showers, needing to throw up. I hate throwing up in the room since it smells.

I sling open the door and run into ash's hard chest. I just shove around him and run to the bathroom to throw up. After i release my stomach into the toilet I brush my teeth and head back to my room being a little scared since ash is back.

"You okay?" Was the first words out of his mouth when I walked in the door. I nodded.

"Yeah. Just morning sickness." I say as I sit on my bed and cuddle up into my warm blankets.

"I'm sorry for walking out. I had to have time to process it."

"It's fine. I understand. I didn't think you would believe me."

"No, no I do believe you. I couldn't say I didn't believe you because I was drunk and don't remember a thing about what we did or didn't. Waking up naked next to someone is a pretty good sign that we did it though."

"So you believe me? And your not furious?"

"I believe you and why would I be mad. It's done. We can't go back and change what we did." I just nod. I don't know what else to say. This isn't how I expected him to handle the situation.

"So have you decided what you are going to do?"

"Not yet. I wanted to talk to you first."

"I want you to keep it." He blurts out fast. "I mean only if you want to. It's your body that will be growing it. But whatever you decide I want to be apart of it. If you want to keep it then I will be their through it all."

After he says that, all the doubts leave my head. I feel excited for the first time. He wants to keep it which means he wants to be the father in its life. He won't just abandon me and his son or daughter. I throw my arms around him and rest my head on his chest. I really needed him to say that.

"That was the best thing you could've said. I wanted to keep it to but I didn't think you would want me to or if you didn't care you would still leave and abandon it."

"I would never abandon my first born kid. It took both of us to get in this situation so it will take both of us to get out. Besides my mom was a teen mom. She got pregnant at 18 as well. But a few months before she should've given birth she got in a car wreck and they had to do an emergency surgery to remove the baby. It didn't survive." I didn't know he had an older sibling.

"When's your next appointment?" He asks.

"Next week."

"I'm coming with you." He says. I just nod and relax into his arms that are still around me. He still makes me feel safe. He made all my worries about the future disappear.

My brain turned to the baby once more. How am I going to raise it and finish high school? By the time I have it, I will be done with my first year but I'll still have another year to go. And I forgot all about the contract for the dorm room. It said no baby's are aloud in the dorms. They are a distraction to other students.

I pull back from ash. "How will I finish school? How will I support the baby? Where will I live? I can't live here with a baby, I signed the contract." I blurt out abunch of the questions that has filled my mind.

"You can always just finish this year and then take next years course online so you can finish in two years. I can get a job to help support the baby. And the living situation, what about an apartment? You hate the dorm anyways due to the communal showers."

"Okay. You have good ideas. I can get a job to or pick up YouTube again. I made a lot when I would vlog. I might even be able to do both until the baby gets here." I think about the apartment. He really was smart. I always wanted an apartment over the dorm but I thought the dorm would be easier.

"Have you told your family?"

"No. I only told kayley, Noah, and you."

"What's between you and Noah?" He says with a different tone in his voice. Maybe jealousy?

"I don't know what was between us but there is nothing now. I told him I would only be his friend and he accepted that." He just nods.

"When are you telling your family? And Luke, you two never keep secrets?"

"Well I want to go home when I tell my family so I was thinking I would tell them over thanksgiving break. It's in two weeks. As for Luke, would you care if I bring him over right now to tell him? I don't know if he'll be mad or not. He probably will but I don't think he could hurt you."

"I'll be fine. Go ahead so you can tell him before kayley accidentally lets it slip." I nod and get out my phone.

Nikki : Hey Luke. Can you come over to my dorm? It's really important.
Luke: Sure Nikki. I'll be there in five.

I hang up and wait. Im scared for what he's going to say. He's my twin, I wouldn't know what to do without him. He's been my rock since day one. He's always taken my side. The knock on the door breaks me out of thought. Here goes nothing.

Ash opens the door and Luke walks in. He sees the look on my face and instantly knows something is wrong. It's his twin tuition. He always knows when something's wrong sometimes before I know.

"Nikki what's wrong?" Here goes nothing. This is the make or break moment.

"I don't want you to hate me. Please don't hate me. I love you and you've always been the best brother ever too me. I don't know what I would've done without you growing up. Just please, please don't hate me for what I'm about to tell you."

"Okay spit it out. Your fucking scaring me nikki."

"I'm pregnant."

"You're for real?" I nod and he looks at me with sympathy. He hugs me. "I'll never hate my twin sister."

"Really?"

"Yes nikki. I'd never be able to hate you. You're making me an uncle." He says with a smile. His smile soon drops. "Who's the dad?" I look over to ash.

"Dude seriously. I thought y'all were friends."

"We are. We drank a bottle of vodka and the next thing we knew, we were laying beside eachother with no clothes on. Neither of us remembered what happened. We just said we didn't and went on but I guess we did since I haven't been with anyone else."  He nods.

"Well if you're happy sis, I'm happy. Whatever you decide to do I'll be there but just so you know, I would really like to be an uncle." He said with a wink and I chuckled.

"I could never go through with killing my baby, we decided we are keeping it."

"Good." He says and then hugs me before leaving. He hasn't been around as much lately. I think he found a girl that he's been hanging out with.

It's been a long morning so I lay down in my bed and fall asleep. Ash comes over and lays next to me, wrapping and arm around my belly as if protecting it. It was sweet.