Villian Deku

Knives Edge ⚠TW⚠

I took a deep breath as I closed the gap between the microphone and my lips. I winced as a spotlight flashed down on me, with a smiling Toga behind it waving at me furiously. Twice was behind her giving me a thumbs up. I smirked as a gasp went round the room, with people slowly recognising me.
"Long time no see folks. Now.. let me see... Iida is that an undercut? Never took you for that kind of guy, heheh. Ochako have you lost weight? No.no.. sorry you haven't it was just the angle. Shotoo my man! Looking as attractive as ever I see! Tsuyu! Mineta still giving you trouble? "
I continued like this. Sweeping my eyes across the room. Watching them gawk in horror, one by one,  as I called their name. I locked eyes with Kacchan, and I was shocked to see tears rolling down his face.
"D-damn nerd. What are you doing with the villains. You brain washed or something?..... Why did you lie. Why did you lie?! I THOUGHT YOU KILLED YOURSELF. I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BAD I'VE FELT!!!"
Katsukis voice cracked as he yelled at me. Everyone looked at me expectantly, waiting for a return. I felt anger build up inside of me. I have no idea how he feels? Seriously? Selfish as always. I see he hasn't changed one bit since middle school.  I spoke, hearing my own voice crack as my emotions got the best of me.

"Seriously. SERIOUSLY?I HAVE NO IDEA HOW YOU FEEL?! YOU ARE STILL SO SELFISH AND BLIND AFTER ALL OF THIS TIME. I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF BECAUSE OF YOU. "

Sobs racked my body as I continued to yell. I yanked up my sleeves, revealing hundreds of scars that would forever stay with me. I watching everyone in the room wince as I revealed more and more of them.

"YOU DID THIS KACCHAN. YOU MADE ME INTO THIS."

I stopped. Unable to stop sobbing as I stood shaking on stage.

All Might and Eraser moved cautiously towards me, and Toshinori spoke.

"Young Midoriya, its ok. Just come with us and-"
"SHUT UP. SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!. Don't even get me STARTED ON YOU.  THIS IS YOUR FAULT AS WELL. THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT, YOU BROKE ME. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH I WANTED TO BE LIKE YOU?! YOU ALWAYS HAD A SMILE ON YOUR FACE NO MATTER WHAT. I JUST. You were just so strong... And I wanted to be that strong. For my mum. "
I felt a sudden dizziness as I was launched back into the dark depths of my mind.

I was 16. I was standing in the bathroom of my house, a kitchen knife in my hand.
"Izuku, you're worthless. You deserve this."
I watched myself scream in agony as I twisted the knife into my wrist.
I did it. Again. And Again. Speeding up, slicing my entire arm all the way up. At first it had been painful. But soon it turned to ecstasy as I cut again and again. I heard a cold laugh escape from my throat.
"Honey? Izuku what are you doing"
I watched myself panic and begin to cover up my arm. Mum had been home early that day.
"M-mum I'm fine. I just... I ju-" I watched as I collapsed to the floor.
"IZUKU?! I'M COMING IN."
I vividly remember the last thing I saw. It was my arms, a scarlet red, as I bled out on the floor. I heard my mum panic as she called 911. I heard her scream my name as I faded to black.

I snapped back, taking in my surroundings. The lights were back on, and Togs and Twice were nowhere to be seen. I suddenly remembered the dagger in my back pocket.
"Young Midoriya?"
I looked over to All Might and smiled. I felt pleasure as I watched him squirm. Suddenly. I sheathed the knife, causing a panicked look over Erasers face. Aizawa knew about my self harm, and had discarded many a knife from my dorm in the past.
"Hey Kacchan, All Might. This is for you."
I heard myself give a cold laugh, as I slit my throat, stumbling backwards.
"MIDORIYA NO"

I heard Aizawa and All Might yell as I stumbled back, falling into Kurogiri's portal.

Everything went dark.