Silence (m.c.)

Chapter 1

I'm Michael. Michael Clifford. I've been this way for a long time now. She doesn't know I exist, but I've fallen for her each and everyday. The days she puts her hair in a messy bun, the days she wears leggings, and her over sized sweatshirts and sweaters, those are the days she's most beautiful. She's beautiful all the time. I just can't be the one to tell her that. I'm not someone special. I've never been a very optimistic or outgoing person, which is probably the reason I sit in my room alone all the time, thinking of ways to kill myself. She's so beautiful and I just want the whole world to know.
She doesn't have a boyfriend. She just got out of a relationship though, turns out he was a dick and cheated on her. Some people don't understand the value of women. They use them for sex, and basically they're just trophies to most boys. And I say boys because a real man wouldn't treat a girl like that. I had a girlfriend once. Her name was Lily. She said that she was moving away and we broke up. I've never seen her since, because she killed herself.
She was so pretty, she had so many friends, such good grades and she killed herself. She seemed so happy. I trusted her. She was supposed to trust me but clearly she hadn't put enough trust for me in to realize I wasn't going to her and she's gone now.
I think that's when it started for me really. When my whole world was gone. And to be honest. I didn't find anyone after Lily was dead until this very day. The first day back of winter break. Junior year. Yeah, I'd thought of my feelings for her before this, but I never realized it was really until her snapchat story was filled with pictures of her crying and sad emojis. I almost messaged her to ask if she was okay, but I decided not to, I mean she's so different than I am.
She'd never give me a chance in any of this. Maybe someday I'll get the confidence to talk to her.
"Mate, you're staring at her." I knew that voice out of a crowd.
Ashton Irwin.
"Oh. I didn't realize you came back to the country." I reply.
Ashton was one of my best mates a few years ago before he moved back to Australia.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was coming back. I'm sorry I didn't keep in contact with you. Like the hair by the way. Oh! The rest of the boys are back too. But Calum and Luke already have been sent to the office. Turns out peaking sex sounds in the library during first period can get you a detention." He tells me as if it's not a problem.
"Ash, do you not realize how much I like her? Her dumbass ex cheated on her. And now look at her." I said motioning to the girl standing in the leggings trying to avoid her ex who is trying to talk to her and apologize.
"Looks like she's having fun. Dealing with that and all, go try and help her Michael." He pushes me forward.
Yeah, her ex was a lot smaller than me, but I still wasn't the violent type and I knew he was. Maybe just my height would scare him off for awhile. I'm strong enough to kill him, I haven't spent all these years in my room sitting around like a rock, I lifted weights quite a bit.
As I approached the situation I was starting to gain confidence.
"Sasha! You don't realize! I made a mistake. An honest mistake! I love you!" He pleads and whines like a god damn puppy. Except puppies are cute, him on the other hand looked like a truck ran over cowshit and then his face.
"Blake! I told you I'm not going to believe you! You've done this to me twice and I'm not going to let you do it a third time!" She tells him trying to walk away but, he pulls her back.
Okay. I was pissed at this point. Actually beyond pissed. He put his hands on her.
"Hey, can't you see she doesn't want to talk to you? Doesn't want to put up with your bullshit any longer? You could get another girl. I know you could. And I hope you fall for her as hard as she did for you, and this girl fucks you over. Because it's what you deserve. A girl like Sasha doesn't deserve to be treated like a toy or trophy. Girls are like glass, they break easily. So you should just shut your damn mouth, save the bullshit for someone else and leave her alone." I practically yell at him. This new found confidence in myself is really important in this moment.
"What do you have to do with this?" He snaps. "It's not like you could treat her any better, I mean look at you." He motions to my outfit, hair and piercing above my eyebrow. "You look like an absolute dick." He tells me.
"Blake? Thanks for the comments on my lifestyle and choice of how to express myself. But I know" I stepped between them at this point. "I know very well that you need to leave her alone. And actually you're more of a dick than I'd ever been and have ever been." I turned to look at Sasha and she just looked at me with eyes that said thank you. I could tell.
...
He threw the first punch. I beat the shit out of him. He got sent home. I didn't. I didn't have a scratch on me really. Sasha thanked me. And the rest of the guys, Calum's new girlfriend, myself, and Sasha all decided to go to Luke's flat. He had the biggest house and we just all wanted to hang out so it worked. I had room for one person in my truck, so obviously Sasha went with me.
"Michael, thank you so much for what you did earlier." She tells me as I start driving down the road.
"It's not a problem." Damn. I'm starting to lose confidence.
"He was a problem. And I just wanted to let you know I appreciated it. And I know you could treat me better than him." She tells me placing her hand just above my knee.
"I-I-" I pulled off on the side of the road. "It's not a big d-deal for me to do s-something like t-that" I stutter.
"Kiss me." She looked me straight in the eyes and told me to kiss her.
I took her face in my hands and kissed her softly.
She ran her hands up under my shirt and her small hands traced my toned body.
It continued from there...

A/N
AYEEEEEE SO ILL BE UPDATING EVERY THREE TO FIVE DAYS. OR EVERY WEEK BC SCHOOL EW. BUT HOW DO YOU LIKE THE FIRST CHAPTER? Great right? Haha just kidding. But follow me on Twitter? @hemmxhoodxx I'll follow you back!!!