Poetic nonsense of a dumbass

Bad day

I wake up, and even though it's a sunny day,
There is a storm inside my home.

The monsters inside my head seem to quieten, when I became a monster instead.

I'm convincing you what I am. My fear is pretending I don't see the tears and wearing them like a crown. Don't raise what's meant to be down.

Don't love the monster.
Don't pet the snake.
If I don't hurt you, it's me who will break,
Leave me alone. At least let one of us out alive
Why kill two birds, throw the stone out and let one survive,
Let the crow among swans die.

Put me out my misery.
I'm an injured bird. I can't fly anymore,
My broken wings are far to sore
Disregarded by its fellows,
Left where no one dare follow,
I'm a pigeon amongst swallows,
I rule the ground down below,
So don't follow me. No.

I'm the one who has no mate,
I'm the one who gets fed no bait,
Im not good enough to live nor die on a plate,
I'm the one who's either pitied or full of hate,
Pretending they aren't alone, too scared to seal their fate,
They live through time. And dates,
They are the dumb one, no debate.

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