Summary: Sixth year first week back from summer, potions class. What happens when the potion in question plays with memories, specifically when Sirius relives a memory that he doesn't particularly want to relive. I'm sorry i'm awful at summaries. But it's kinda cute tbh.Pre-read authors note:
TW
implied physical abusechild abuseemotional abuse:) wowfun
"I'm very excited about this one" Slughorn smiled with a gleeful voice.
Sirius rolled his eyes "I swear the bloke says that every time" he mumbled.
"It's the first class back from-" James interrupted.
Sirius only took potions because he wanted to become an auror to spite his parents, and, it showed. "How many more pointless potions am I going to have to brew, I'm going to-"
"Mr. Black, do you have something to share with the class?" Slughorn turned towards him.
Sirius plastered a charming smirk on his face "My excitement and positive attitude?" he offered with a grin. That left Professor Slughorn slightly confused, and compelled him to ignore the young mans antics.
"As I was saying, Comem-cordial is one of the most rudimentary potions, yet, it is very powerful which is why we've saved it for your sixth year. It's almost impossible to get this one wrong. It's affect is similar to thus of a pensive or a powerful legilimen, meaning, you can see a snippet of the brewers past, unfortunately, it is not powerful enough for you to control what you see, which is why it is not frequently used, seeing as it is almost impossible to access the memory you want to, anyhow, if there are no questions, please begin to brew" He said waving his hands slightly.
"Sir" Marlene said glancing up "On the board it says to come to you for the 'association piece' what is that"
"Ah! Ms. Mckinnon what a keen eye, of course, how could I forget. You see, the potion works best when you have something to look for. I'll be handing out small squares of fabric, and you will find the memory which is associated closest with said material. For example, even if you've never seen someone wear pink velvet, it may remind you of, say, madame puddifoots, and the drinker will see your most prominent memory from Madame Puddifoots." Slughorn explained."I want to be near Lily" James hissed in Sirius' ear.
"What, fuck, fine" Sirius dragged himself to the desk next to where Lily usually sat. Unfortunately for the both of them, Severus sat on the right meaning he was directly across from Sirius, that caused a small eye roll. And even more unfortunately, Lily was still absolutely livid with Severus for calling her a mudblood, and she sat at the opposite side of the classroom with Remus. (Peter hadn't made it in to the NEWT level potions class)
"Can you past the snake skin please?" Sirius asked James finishing his fourth clockwise stir.
"It's boomslang skin" Snape corrected.
"A boomslang is a kind of fucking snake is it not?" Sirius replied. "I honestly doubt there'd be a difference between a boa and a cobra-"
"ignorant" Snape hissed. Probably true, Sirius could not care less.
"We're meant to do six left yeah?" He said squinting at his potions book, he wasn't good with reading a lot of the time. Probably a bit dyslexic, but far too proud to admit it.
"Six counter clockwise" James clarified, he was quite a bit further ahead, but Severus was already finished, so was Lily, god damn suck ups.
"What the hell are you doing?" Sirius laughed.
"Padfoot, you've got to put in a hair" James replied pulling a hair out. Sirius gasped with a feign horrified expression.
"Ahh! No, not my hair, this is the end of me Prongs, tell my parents I absolutely fucking loathe them" He said placing a hand dramatically on his forehead leaning back. Most of the people found his little performance quite amusing. Lily rolled her eyes and stifled a giggle. Severus simply looked like he'd just watched someone murder a small animal.A few short moments later his potion turned a perfect lilac.
"Excellent Mr. Black, well done" Slughorn said praising him. Sirius just awkwardly smiled. He normally lapped praise up, but not coming from a Slytherin. That got a glare from Snape, Slughorn almost ignored Severus' talents at this point, just expected it to always be more than perfect.
"How is yours better than mine?" James hissed.
"I'm just talented Prongsy" Sirius teased with a small snicker.
"Now who says we play a fun game of potions roulette after adding the fabric?"
Everyone glanced around awkwardly until (bless her brave little heart) Dorcas raised her hand.
"Wouldn't that be a bit of a, er, a privacy breach sir?"
"Ah, yes your right, you can all take your own potions I suppose, I expect you to all be honest in your write ups-" He added. Potion roulette was usually quite entertaining, any safe to consume potions would be passed around the room and you'd write about the quality of whomevers potion you received. It was only unfair when Severus got your potion, for no matter how well you did, there was always something wrong. In his defence, James had failed him twice just for fun. But that was back in first year, things had changed. But, the mere thought of potions roulette with memories involved gave Sirius a small heart attack.
"I'm coming around with fabrics, just reach into the bag and pull out one square. If you use two you will confuse the potion-" He said with a laugh as if it were somehow funny.
Remus reached into the bag and sighed when it was a red linen. Same fabric that used to be on their duvets in first year, meaning he knew he wouldn't have to be the wolf. Lily went in next and furrowed her brow at the pink lace. That would be a hard one to place, not many people wore pink lace. Sirius was counting down until it was his, he wasn't really worried, it was a fucking piece of fabric. Marlene pulled out a small piece of towel, Dorcas had a thick cotton material, Valeria Burke pulled a bright yellow microfiber square, she blushed slightly, probably thinking about her hufflepuff boyfriend, Fable Greengrass pulled out a black polyester. James grabbed a red sweatery fabric, it immediately reminded Sirius of the quidditch pullovers. He reached in, and pulled out a small square. Glancing down he flinched slightly. Black silk. How fucking funny. Just perfect, what were the chances. Apparently, they were never in his favour. He was staring at the fabric bottom lip trembling slightly.
"Pads" Remus was right behind him suddenly "you okay?"
He realized he'd been standing there staring at his little square of fabric for almost twenty seconds. Which doesn't sound like a lot, but it is to be frozen in place.
"Yeah" Sirius laughed "just zoned out a bit I guess" The moment Remus was out of ear shot he turned to James "trade with me" He hissed. James nodded and was handing the fabric over.
"Boys!" They heard Slughorn click his tongue at them.
"Just quick grab it-" James hissed but it was too late someone else had placed the little square of fabric in his potion for him.
"Seems that your were struggling, I figured I'd help" Severus sneered.
Sirius wanted to tear him apart but, alas, he could not afford another detention for physically attacking one particular greasy haired slytherin, and he definitely could not afford a letter home, hell he didn't even live there anymore but it was still considered home at least to the school, and Merlin knows how much he could not afford another howler at breakfast.
"Mate, just trade couldrons" James offered.
Sirius shook his head. "don't want you to see this" He said with a suggestive smirk, that would've convinced anyone nearby that his memory had something to do with lingerie.
James gave him a little gag look "I don't believe you but-"
"You wouldn't want to see this-" Sirius said with a snicker. He was suddenly glad Lily and Remus were at the other side of the classroom, what would he do if Remus thought he- wait, why did that matter, it didn't.
Around the room the steam billowing from the potions were different colours. Severus who'd had a small floral printed courduroys was billowing the same shade of green as Lily's eyes. James' was emanating golden smoke, Remus' was grey, Lily's was red, Sirius' was black. He braced himself for a fun adventure.
"On the count of three" Slughorn coaxed "One, Two, Consume!"
Sirius obliged bringing the spoon to his lips and sipping a tiny amount of the potion. He figured the more you drank the longer you'd be stuck there.
Grimmuald Place. As expected, although he couldn't see his mother anywhere. He felt shorter than usual, he glanced down and noticed his tiny socked feet furrowing his brow he realized this memory was not from over the summer. He was prepared for that memory, he had no idea what this was. When he glanced up he noticed a mirror. His face was tiny, and round. His grey eyes were sparkling and the size of moons. His hair wasn't long, I mean, it wasn't short but it was just around jaw length at the time. He must've been five years old, maybe a little older or younger. He heard foot steps storming towards himself, his instinct told him to run, but he was stuck in the memory, reliving it, not observing, he was reliving it. He turned around and backed up at the sight of his raging mother slamming into the mirror shattering it to pieces. A chunk flew down ripping his pant open and cutting his leg. Oh, that's how he got that scar, cool. "Sirius Orion Black-" His mother inhaled sharply. Sirius darted trough the arch way and onto the other side at the sight of his father. Walburga came around the corner and knelt down to his height. "Look at me little Star" She muttered. That fucking nickname, last time he was called that in school he punched the little fucker, they evidentaly didn't know why, but nobody called him that again. "You want to make Mummy proud yes?" She said in a weird-soft voice that was definitely not natural for her. Little Sirius nodded his tiny head in a yes. "Mummy and Father care about you okay Star? You just need to learn right from wrong" She had her hands rested on his shoulder in the moment. "And what you did was wrong, and we need to fix that, it's not because we don't care about you" Not even then, as practically a toddler did the word love escape her lips. Sirius nodded. "So you're going to take your lesson like a big boy, and you're not going to disappoint us again, do you understand?" Back to her cold self. Sirius nodded tilting his head upwards.
"Sirius" His Fathers voice was present. "Don't forget that boy's don't cry, do you need to learn two lessons today?" Sirius shook his head violently wiping his eyes quickly trying to stop tears from falling. "No sir" he whispered.
"Good boy" his mother said from the back. Sirius felt a firm hand on his shoulder.
Remus was sitting awake on his bed, third year, Sirius was sitting across from him.
"Sorry for teasing you about the boggart thing" he mumbled looking around.
"Yeah, it was stupid, you didn't want to see yours either" Remus replied.
"I already know what mine is, we've got a boggart in our attic" Sirius shrugged. "Bella used to lock me up there until she found out it was just my father anyways" He laughed awkwardly. At the time Remus really did not understand what he'd said so he'd just awkwardly laughed.
"So we're good?" Sirius added glancing up. Merlin, he was so innocent and young, his eyes were wide and sparkling. Remus was clinging to the linen duvet cover running circles in it.
"Yeah, we're good" He laughed.
Sirius glanced down at his hand "I hate the sheets, they're really scratchy" He laughed.
"Yeah? I didn't notice, but a change would be nice" He shrugged.
"I heard the older brunette- what's his name- Frank? yeah Frank, Frank said that you get new decor in fourth year, it's going to be weird being in a different room you know" Sirius mumbled glancing around.
"yeah, I guess so, are you ready for vacation?"
"Lily! You got your letter!" Severus grinned rushing over to her.
"I did get a letter!" She smiled back twirling slightly. Her floral shirt tucked into a pair of jeans. She rarely wore pants, it was a fun vibe. "I'm excited Sev! Nervous- but excited" She added with a giggle, her red hair flowing down her back. "Do you reckon I'll be in the same um-"
"House?" Sev offered.
"Yeah, house, as you?" She laughed.
"Yeah, yeah, definitely, or at least I hope so" Severus smiled with a small shrug.
"Even if we're not we'll be friends right?" She added sounding slightly worried.
"Of course Lily, it's you and I"
"You and I against the world" The newly turned eleven-year-old grinned.
"Deal" Severus smirked putting his fist out for one of those muggle bump things. All lies, Evans was gone, he'd lost her.
"anyways" Lily smiled.
"Sirius!" A voice screeched, but it was no longer his mothers. He opened his eyes groggily. He was lying flat on his back in the potions classroom. He lay there for a second blinking the grogginess out of his eyes. "Sirius are you okay?" He heard a voice, James' voice, it was full of worry. Sirius awkwardly nodded sitting up. "I- I think I did my potion wrong" He laughed awkwardly. "I don't remember being in a memory" he added.

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