Hiding In The Shadows Of Pain Boyxboy Ziall(One Direction Fan Fiction AU)

Chapter 5

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Chapter 5

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Liam has been practically pleading me to get out from under my covers and back to the real world. He’s been bribing me with extra sweets -which he found out I was quite keen about- and even becoming my personal slave for a day, which was quite tempting, but I wouldn’t budge. Once, he even pretended to choke, but I saw right through his act. I think after four days of trying to get me out of the room he just gave up, but really I don’t blame him, I would have too. But I still see the sympathetic look in his eyes whenever he leaves the room. I never put myself up for embarrassment, but ever since I stepped foot into this institute, everything has changed. 

Today, I’ve been doing nothing but hibernating under my covers and secretly letting stray tears fall out of my eyes, and quickly wiping them before anyone sees. Even the voices inside of my head have gone strangely quiet for some reason. I just want to vanish in to the pit of Earth and never come back. But how could I not feel like this, when all I am feeling is resent and stupidity. For some reason, I was convinced I was doing the right thing -in a sort of a spur of the moment kind of way- but it turns out, I couldn’t be more mistaken.

And the reason I am suddenly feeling like this, can only be put in one word. Zayn. When I last saw the confusing boy was at the library when I ran after him, thinking he needed help. As fast as I could manage, I made my way towards him on the other side of the library, ready to be his shoulder to cry on, when suddenly I see him talking to Sofia. Also know as the gossip around here- from what Liam told me, he likes to talk to new people sometimes. 

Normally, this wouldn’t have bothered me, not one bit, but when I leaned in a bit closer to hear what they were talking about so secretly, my heart sank to the floor. They could have been talking about the weather or the crazy schedule we are put in, or even about some of the questionable food they serve at the cafeteria -but no, they had to be talking about me. 

At first I refused to believe what they where discussing, but after the tenth time my name was brought up in their conversation, realization slowly blinded me. I calmed myself down and thought, maybe they aren’t saying bad things about me and I am just jumping to conclusions. So I leaned in closer and when I got a good earful, I almost broke down into tears. 

Sofia was practically inventing stories as she went. Saying I was left out on the streets at the age of nine and picked up by some drug addicts who forced me into prostitution to pay for their house. Something about being kicked out of seven different schools got brought up. And she mentioned I got beat up at school for being gay -which couldn’t be any more of a lie. She also said that I was here for drug addiction and health disorders, and that I was deemed mentally unsafe.