The Struggle (AU)

The Accident

Katsuki Bakugo POV:

As I stand in front of the mirror I see everything I don't want to see. I see a girl drowning in self-doubt. Someone weak. That is why I must become the number one hero. To prove I can be strong. I put on a binder and my uniform. Today is the first day back from break which means we will be getting dorms. Which is terrible. If I'm going to be sharing a room with someone than I will be forced to come out to them. I can't sleep in my binder and I have a period so playing dumb isn't an option.

I go down stairs with my bag. I didn't pack much I live a few blocks away from school so I can just come get my stuff if I need it. We aren't supposed to bring our stuff till after school but the teachers made an exception for me in case my roommate doesn't want to stay with me. I find my mom in the kitchen.

"Hey, brat." She jokes.

"Oi, hag." I joke back.

She throws me an apple and I wave goodbye as I grab my bag and put on my shoes. I get to school a few minutes early. I go to the front office to get a key to my dorm. After getting my key I go to the dorm to drop my things off. It's a nice dorm. Two small dressers and a bunk bed with a bathroom and a large closet. The walls are white with a pale blue accent wall. I put my bag against the far wall and head for class.

Everyone seems excited to see their friends again after the brake. When Kirishima comes in the classroom he grins and comes to sit next to me. My heart speed up a little which I scold myself for. I cannot get distracted. Especially today. Of course he decides to bring up the one thing I don't want to talk about.

"Excited for dorms?" He asks.

"Ecstatic." I sarcastically.

Aizawa comes into the room toeing his cocoon of depression with him. He looks emotionless as usual but when his eyes meet mine his face flashes a look of panic. What was going on? Why did he look at me like that? Then he started speaking and I understood.

"Hello class, this week we will be doing a line of physical exercises without using quirks. This will show how you would do in a battle where you are unable to use your quirk. This will also show your physical endurance." Fuck! I'm so screwed! Mr. aizawa tells the class to change in the locker room. He tells me to stay behind. After everyone leaves I move to the front of the classroom. 

"You don't have to participate. Quite frankly you shouldn't." He said really showing a lot of worry. His statement made me mad.

"No I am quite capable. I have to give my all. I'm no chicken." I quietly yell.

"This is about your well-being."He answers.

"I'm fine. I have to change into my gym clothes." I leave the room.

I change in the bathroom and go out to the field. Deku meets my eyes he looks worried. Stupid Deku I don't need his pity! I glare back. He reluctantly turns back to his group of losers and his stupid boyfriend. I walk over to kirishima who is stretching.

"Oi, Shitty Hair." I greet him.

"Hey Bakubro." He knows I hate that name. I glare at him but let it go.

Mr. Aizawa stalks into the field. "Today we will be doing the one mile run."

Deku looks at me and visibly gulps. This will be bad.I am so fucked. Goddammit! Kirishima seems confused that i met eyes with deku and didn't flip out.  I'm too worried to care though.

"Warm up students."Mr. Aizawa says. he walks over to me. "You can still decide not to participate it's for the best. Deku looks very worried. I assume he knows?"

I nod. Kirishima is obviously eavesdropping. Dammit. When I speak I talk quietly enough that I hope he can't hear."I have to do this. For myself."

Aizawa sighs and walks away. "Everyone to the tracks." He says.

I step up to the line and ignore the looks Kirishima and Deku give me. I can do this I just have to concentrate on my breathing.

"Go." azawa says.

Kirishima POV:

I take off down the track. I'm pretty good at running because I don't really use my quirk for running. I can't really concentrate today which slows me down. I keep thinking back to what Aizawa said. I assume bakugou wont tell me what the huge secret is. Maybe deku will tell me. probably not. Why would he be worried about Bakugou though? It doesn't make any sense.

I try to concentrate on running. Bakugou never runs he usually uses his quirk. It's obvious he's pushing himself. He's already breathing hard. I slow down slightly and he passes me. It's best this way. I hate it when he's angry at me. I keep an eye on him. He has started to slow down dramatically. I can hear him breathing super hard. Does he have a lung issue I don't know about? This can't just be from not running very often.

Then all at once his knees buckle and he falls to the ground. I come to a dead stop I look down in horror. He's not breathing. I kneel down as I hear Mr. Aizawa say, "Class back to the classroom deku help me with Bakugou." I try to do CPR but Deku neels next to me and takes off bakugos shirt revealing a binder. I would have never guessed. The binder is black and has a zipper down the front. Deku unzips the binder. Bakugo starts panting and breathing harshly. 

In a moment of panic I grab his hand trying to sooth him. He feel my hand and looks at me. He automatically looks horrified. I'm about to let go of his hand when he squeezes my hand and half-smiles at me. Bakugo seems to realize he's lying on the track without a top on. He scrambles up and puts on his shirt. He seems to get a head rush and lies back down.

"Thanks." He says. "I need to lie down. My dorm is 113 can you help me get there?"

"Yeah, no problem." Does he mean carry him? "Can you stand?"

"Probably?"he says. he tries to stand up and it seems to hurt.

"Here I'll just carry you."

"Fine."

I cradle him against my chest being careful of his sore area. I can feel myself blushing like crazy. I carry him to his dorm. When we finally get there I lie him on the bottom bunk bed.

"How do you know which dorm is yours already?"

"They let me come early. In case my roommate doesn't take my being trans well."

"Damn, well if they don't you can always hangout with me?" I ask.

"Whatever." He replies which for Bakugo is a yes.

I smile. "Aizawa will want me back in class do you need anything before i go?"

"Nah, see you man."

"Bye man."