I turned around and found the mirror behind. A reflection of my current being. Standing uncertain of what the future could be.
Pumunta ako sa fridge. I have found nothing. Water lang and delivered left-overs. I really need to fill this up. I did not bother and went to bed. I grasp my phone when suddenly somebody called.
"Uy tuloy ka ba? We need your response sa e-mail pero di ka sumasagot."
"Baka hindi na" I responded.
"You have to do this you know. It's time, you need to come out of that apartment of yours. Lianne it's been years."
"I know, sorry but I have to decline that keynote speech."
"Okay I respect that. I am here, I am always here." She comforted me.
"Thanks, Veron, I can truly count on you." I ended the call.
Why do I feel like, I am so tired? The day just has started. Here I am wandering my existence. Supposedly I have to seize every moment. But no, I am letting myself wander my thoughts in a confusing direction.
I saw her face again "Ma" I smiled in tears "Sorry I failed."
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"So why multi-media arts? Nung elem tayo magaling ka mag recite and daldal mo nga diba? Nung high-school naman honors ka you could be an Engineer or a doctor."
"Well that is simple" I said as I hold the cup of hot choco in my hands "I love the arts more. Moreover, takot ako sa dugo." then we both laugh.
"And also life already gave me a lot of regrets. Yoko na irisk gawin ang isang bagay dahil magaling ako. Gusto ko gawin ang isang bagay na alam ko sa sarili ko ay passion ko and that is why I have chosen multi-media. But I know myself, baka dumating yung time na magsawa ako sa corporate job.
Malay natin in the future mag decided ako mag business, maging writer, who knows diba?" I smiled.
"Ah so madali ka palang magsawa?" Out of nowhere he asked.
"Oh saan naman nagmula yun?" I asked back
"Kakasabi mo lang!" He said.
"Ako kasi yung taong di mapakali sa isa lang ginagawa and pag gusto ko gawin gusto ko talaga." I explained.
"Buti ka pa alam mo na gusto mo! Ako di ko alam kung ano talaga gusto ko." He said.
"Course pa ba yan? Parang iba na ahh!" I joked at him
"Sa umpisa kasi gusto ko lang siyang nakikita, or nacucurious lang ako. But then, later on, I find how attractive she really is." He smiled and looked at the starsw. "And come to think of it, it took me years to realize that."
"Si Trisha?" I asked.
He looked at me "Uhm Yes? siguro? Pero si mom nalang."
"Nalang?" nalito ako ahh
"Nakakalito ba? Wag mo na isipin." He said and turned to me.
"You know Lianne, it's nice talking to you. I have no pretensions. Kasi ang tagal mo na akong kilala." Sabi niya
"Oo pero ngayon lang tayo nag-usap talaga." Sabi ko din sabay tayo.
"Maganda ka pala kausap, you know we must do this more often. I enjoyed talking to you." Sabi ni Aron.
"Ikaw lang eh." I whispered to myself. "Sige na alis ka na! Baka may maka kita pa saatin sitahin pa tayo."
He just smiled and went on his way.
BINABASA MO ANG
Too late to fall for you
Fiksi RemajaI was no one to you before. Then suddenly fate made it's way to lead you now in my door. I want to say I hardly want to say yes but I don't know if it is right to take that risk. I want to go away and run from this fantasies of mine. But, you keep...
