So this is a true story about me and my old friend, now girlfriend. Since I am not making it up, and it's coming from facts, I really hope it reads well.
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We had always been close. Best friends since the 3rd grade in Girl Scouts. It was the end of my freshman year of high school and I could barely comprehend these feelings I was having for her. She had come out to me as bisexual in 8th grade and it hadn't bothered me in the slightest. I didn't have anything against gay people. I t was normal as far as I was concerned. I never thought I would be though. That's why those feelings confused me so much initially.
We had a very physical relationship. We would cuddle and occasionally hold hands in a way we thought was just playful. Or a least that's what I had thought. I never thought about it too much. I knew I loved her as a friend. I never realized my feelings might go beyond that until I started noticing that I wasn't physical with other friends.
That's about when I started having an obsession with a girl at my school. I barely knew her, but I wanted to be her best friend. I started asking myself if it was possible I had a crush on her. I talked to my friend about it. She helped me realize that I wasn't for sure gay but I might be. I was just mainly confused, but I decided to accept myself and let life keep moving the way it was.
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Her name is Bettina by the way. The girl I had a bit of an obsession with will not be named. Sorry.
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School ended and I realized I really missed Bettina. I started wondering if I might have feelings for her past just friends, and I decided I did. One night, I was babysitting some kids, and after they had gone to bed, I was texting her, We were joking around that no one loved me and I would die alone. She said I had her and I replied something to the effect of, "haha, but we're just friends, it doesn't count." Of course with my crappy memory, I can't remember the exact conversation but it came out that I thought I had feelings for her and she thought she had feelings for me. We didn't see each other until weeks later, but we continued in our flirty regime. We had decided we would just see what happened when school started.
Being only 14, I hadn't had my first kiss yet. But I was determined that I would wait for it to be special. Bettina and I planned a little study date at Starbucks about a week before school started. I was a bit nervous because not only would I be seeing her for the first time in months, I would be seeing her with the new knowledge that we liked each other. I tend to over think things, so of course this was no exception. I found myself hoping and praying that she would kiss me that day.
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Sorry this first part is a bit boring. I'm now in tenth grade so a lot of this for now will be catching up. I firmly believe in cliffhangers, sorry. But I also don't want to waste my time writing this if it wont get read. This was just a tiny preview of the story and if it gets some reads, I will definitely put my heart into it and make it amazing for you guys. If you want more, let me know!
-XOXOXO Sammie
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