My Collection of Poems and Songs

Entry #01 (Poem)

THINGS THAT I CAN'T DENY

- Laica Casipe

When I look in your eyes, why do I feel this thing?

You're not even nice, but why is my heart melting?

You don't even notice me and just pass,

Ignoring me is what you always do whenever we cross paths.

When you speak a word it's like music in my ears,

But when you mock me it's like sword that causes my eyes tears

At first I didn't care at all, but accidentally I fall

But I remember that your expectation is unfortunately tall.

I watch you move in every way, it's like a nice movie for me

But when you make fun of me on the things you say, I'm also wounded inside that no one can see

When you tell a joke I laugh, even it's not enough

For you to notice me and look into my eyes simply.

I care for you for all the time

But all you see are just blurred lines

It means we don't have any connections

And what I feel for you are just merely illusions.

You know what it's kind of unfair that you don't even care

And all the heartaches and sorrow are all the things that I'm the only one who bare

You don't even give a damn, so I'm thinking if you are numb

Or the problem is in me, am I being too much dumb?

I know in the very beginning that pain is the only thing that I'll be experiencing

But I continue this fight because for me it's right

Wrongs can always be corrected but heartaches can never be avoided

By a person who loves truly and a person who falls deeply.

I really want to say all of this so that you can notice me at least

But I don't have the courage, so I'll just keep this in the storage

Where all my heartaches are hidden

And all my feelings forgotten

These are the things that I can't deny as I look into your eyes

I will continue to pretend and choose to tell lies

As I sit alone and sing a song

As I cry because of my wrongs.