psycho•sillie

1.first meet

The first day we met...when we were 8?
Oh it was one of the best days of my life

"Sadie hunny,you have to make friends."my mom said,"I know mom."I said not breaking eye contact from the TV.My mom sighed and went back to cooking,"Hunny,I know your still new to this town but you have to get used it,you can make new friends here!"she said,I could see her smile reflecting on the TV screen."I didn't even have friends at California either."I said finally turning to face my mom,"well now it's your time to shine!"she said smiling wider,I gave her a  nod then turned back to the TV.

I never had friends,never.And I wasn't planning to make some,I didn't have any emotions,all I felt was blank.No,I didn't have a rough past or anything,I just feel emptiness.I had schizophrenia which was a disorder that made me different than others,but for another word it means that I'm a fucking psychopath.I meant,they are not wrong I did have psycho behaviors,I always thought of killing people,even my parents but I kind of liked my parents so I couldn't do that.I never had treatment in my whole life,the more I grew the more my disorder became worse.Hopefully this place will be better than California.

"How about you go to the park and clear up your mind,meanwhile your daddy and I will try to find a school for you."my mom said snapping me back to reality,"yeah sure."I said getting up,I wore a small jacket then putted on my shoes."bye mom"I said opening the door "bye hunny,make sure to come back home at 8."my mom said still cooking.I nodded and closed the door behind me.

I was walking to the playground area in the park since no one is normally there in winter.I finally made it to the playground,that's when I saw a short girl making a snowman,around my age.She was wearing an oversized jacket,a cotten beanie,a dark blue scarf,cotton gloves,a sidebag and long boots,like rain boots.Normally I would walk away and find a place where no one is but I didn't.I thought the girl was adorable with her short curls.I walk up to her,she must have heard my footsteps since she looked at me,"uh hi,I saw you making a snowman and I just wanted to join."I said,she gives me a warm smile,oh my god her smile was adorable.She had a dimple and it was driving me crazy,for the first time I smiled back."s-sure,y-you can h-help me f-finish it."she said stuttering,"what's with the stuttering?"I said looking at her deep chocolate eyes."I h-have a d-disorder that m-makes me s-stutter,b-but I am g-getting c-cured."she said smiling at me,I thought her stuttering was one of the cutest things I even heard,I kneel down and help her make the snowman.

We were now playing on the swings,"hey where do you live?"I said curiously."I-I live t-there."she said pointing with her small fingers to a cabin not far from the park."oh!I just live there."I said pointing to the other side,I didn't leave that far away from her house.sweet!
She gives me that same warm smile that I could sink in.She looks over at her watch and frowns,"what's wrong?"I said seeing her frown."I-I have to g-go home."she said looking back at me,"No!"I shouted,she flinched making her curls bounce."I-I meant aww."I said trying to cover my desperate for her to stay,she nods and gets off the swings I do too.She smiles and starts walking away,I felt bad,I wanted to do something,I needed to do something,"w-wait!"I shouted,she turns back to me with a confused face which was so fucking cute,I walk up to her and kiss her cheek grabbing her waist.I pull away and see her blushing like crazy,I smile at her,"want some more?"I said smiling widely,"no-"I cut her off by sucking on both her cheeks.She giggles and manages to push me off with her baby hands."s-see ya."she said smiling,I nod and watch her walk away until I couldn't see her,soon when she was not in my sight I also started walking back home,that night I couldn't stop thinking about her.