Demon of my Heartstrings

Four: Phase Two

I woke up feeling weak, and kind of drained. My vision is blurred but I can just see someone leaning over me. I blinked a couple of times making my vision come back, and I saw Sirius, Chax, and Jessamyn. I try to sit up but my head starts to spin, and Sirius tells me to take it easy. I look over at him trying to remember what happened, but then I remembered the witch. I look around for her but couldn't see her but knocked over trees and burnt spots all over the place. I noticed that Sirius looks perfectly fine, but didn't he get struck by electricity by the witch?

"Sirius, your okay?" I ask my voice soft.

"I'm fine Cordelia, it's you we are worried about." Sirius tells me with a stern but worry look across his face.

"Me? Why-uh what happened?" I ask trying to get rid of the dizziness.

"You don't remember?" Chax asks me.

"I remember the witch, and how I saw her striking Sirius with electricity." I say looking back at Sirius.

"A bit of electricity can't hurt me. What you just did almost killed you." Sirius says more stern.

"What did I do?" I ask confused.

"You lost control! You went berserk and then you actually-you actually-" Sirius tries to explain to me but couldn't seem to finish, "I actually what?" I ask even more confused.

"You defeated the witch. You used Cristobal's power and turned her into stone." Zakary answers coming into my view.

"I did what?" I ask shock.

"You used demon magic, Cordelia. That's dangerous for a human." Sirius tells me looking away.

"I-I-wait what about Cristobal?" I ask worriedly.

"We don't know. You're the only one who can hear him." Jessamyn tells me.

"Cris? Cris are you there? Are you alright?" I ask hoping he will answer.

I didn't hear a reply and I got more worried, and I tried again to communicate with him. There was still no answer, and tears start to fall as I did something to him. I hurt him. I must've made him too weak when I used his magic, and now he faded away. What do I do? Everyone is looking at me waiting, but I think they already know. I turn towards Sirius with tears falling down my eyes, and I hate crying in front of people but Cris is gone. I don't know if I killed him completely or what happened. I'm a terrible person, why couldn't I control my anger more? Why did I lose control so easily?

"He's gone. Isn't he?" Sirius says barely above a whisper.

"I-I-no he can't be! He can't be gone!" I yell hitting my head.

"Cordelia stop!" Sirius yells grabbing onto my hands.

I stare at him feeling like I just ruined everything. This journey was supposed to be about helping Cristobal and I lose control and killed him! What kind of friend does that? I look away as I felt ashamed of myself. If I knew this was going to happen, then I would've just joined my parents in Heaven and bypass this heartache. He's gone and this time it's my fault. I made him disappear forever, and I couldn't even stop myself from losing control.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

" It's not your fault, humans weren't supposed to have demons in their heads anyway. It was too much on you, and it was hard for you to control." Sirius explains to me.

"But I-" I try to explain, "Even if you could control it, Cordelia it would've still been deadly for you." Sirius tells me seriously.

"I hate to be the one to say this, but we can't stay here." Michael spoke up.