Down The Hall

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Sirens, screaming, the sound of footstep running around me what is happening why can't I move why can't I see why can't I do anything?.
The sound of my sister frantically crying is the loudest sound of them all the numbness my body has created is slowly taking over inch by inch, I've lost all feeling from my waist down like someone has pulled the plug on that part of my body.

Why is this happening to me? after the constant pain I get from this always happenings you think I would be used to it by now but no every time it gets worse and worse like apart of me dies everytime I go unconscious, when things go black I know I'm screwed the screaming all gone, the pain worse then imaginable (even for the writer of this story) it's like I'm drowning in my own darkness and as depressing as it sounds there's no other way to put it. I can hear it again, the sound of my sister's tears after mum died I've been her only family and I'm not even related to her. The numbness is the only thing I can feel at the moment, trying to open my eyes is a straight up battle forcing my eyelids open the light hits me like a punch in the face. Once my eyes adjust to the painfully bright light I look for my sister, there she is sitting in the world's most uncomfortable chair crying her eyes out like always. When she finally looks up at me she stops crying she goes to hug me but I try to push her off I hate hugs. Doctor after doctor asking me the same bloody questions I feel like at this point they know my whole life story but the one thing that manages to piss me off everytime is the fact they have no answer to what is happy to me, this started 3 years ago I collapsed suddenly at my friends birthday they said I went into a seizure like state, I was never told the full story. So I was taken to hospital like any other incident but they sent me home saying I was fine and my mother knew I wasn't fine. This happened repeatedly for 7 months before even considering checking me out. First they looked for epilepsy but the results came back negative then I was test for any other possible illness and guess what nothing. Once again they sent me home saying that I was fine this made my mum made so she moved us to a better place with better hospitals and better chances of getting an answer. She did a few months later leaving me with my adopted sister Evie who promised my mum she won't stop her battle to get me help, personally I don't see how crying everytime is helping but she's trying her best.

The doctors give me some food and water and tell me to rest which is easy because I basically do nothing everyday, I look to Evie and give her the 'save me' look.
"I'm sorry but there's nothing I can do to save you" gee thanks what an amazing sister you are.
Hospital food sucks ass bro it's the most disgusting thing ever so I don't eat it don't give me that look I just don't like the taste you can stop now.
I wish I could just get a simple answer that's all I ask for.