He's Online! (Online #1)

109// Sonya's Journal

Sonya's Journal (12-06-18)
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Sonya's Journal

Masasabi kong naka-move on na talaga ako. Binasa ko yung binigay sa akin ni Kent. Oo, may parte sa akin na nalulungkot at nanghihinayang dahil wala akong kaalam-alam na mas nasasaktan pala si Bryan kaysa sa akin. Duwag nga ako dahil hindi ako nagtanong noon. Hinahayaan ko lang siya na makipaghiwalay sa akin. Kinimkim ko yung galit ko sa kaniya sa pag-aakalang may nagustuhan siyang iba. Ang tanga ko 'no? Immature pa kasi ako noon.

Gusto kong humingi ng tawad sa kaniya. Mali, hihingi talaga ako ng tawad sa kaniya at magpapasalamat. He deserves that. But he doesn't deserve me. He deserves someone who can stay with him no matter what happens, and that's not me. I hope, in the future, he will find someone that could make him happy.

I agree that we've grown up... and we're too immature back then. That's why we ended up hurting each other. But I can't deny the fact that it made me stronger.

Luis Bryan Dy, at last, I can say your name. I'm completely healed (thanks to you and Bay Max--Kent).

And maybe... Maybe Bryan and I are bound to separate. 

After all that happened, closure pala talaga ang kailangan ko. Dahil mula noong iniwan niya ako nang walang rason, unti-unti nang lumayo ang loob sa kaniya. Kaya noong unang nag-chat sa akin si Bay Max, sa kaniya nabaling ang atensyon ko. Sa kaniya ako na-attract kahit 'di ko pa siya gaanong kilala.

Luis Bryan Dy.

He's my first love. But I guess first love's role is to teach us lessons, not to stay with us.

It still hurts... a bit. But yeah, wala na akong ibang magagawa kundi mag-move forward.

But our memories, I'll treasure it. Thank you and sorry for everything.

I hope you'll be able to find your happiness, too.

-Sonya Marie Molina