Strawberry Lipgloss | Luwoo

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The events from yesterday were playing on repeat in Jungwoo's head and there wasn't a pause button in sight. He laid in his bed just staring at the ceiling...maybe he was meant to be alone.

Jungwoo has spent his whole life watching other people find love, their other half, but he's never even felt anything close to that. Perhaps he's just utterly unlovable.

His fists clenched the sheets harshly as he felt his eyes fill with tears. He longed for something he hadn't ever had the chance to experience but he wasn't entirely sure if he wanted that experience. It could lead to his heart being broken, although just the thought of it leading to something spectacular made his body tremble with excitement. All he wanted was to have that person, somebody who would hold his hand and kiss his forehead. Somebody who would look like him like he was the prettiest flower in the garden.

Twenty two years. That's how long he's been patiently waiting for it to happen, But here was still alone. Right now it seemed hopeless because he wanted everything to be perfect. He wanted his life to be like a Disney movie where a handsome prince would come and protect him from everything. Was that too much to ask for? It was touching how much his friends cared...but he didn't want a random guy who would eventually grow tired of him. He wanted somebody he could laugh with, somebody he could tell all his secrets, somebody who would make him feel like the princess he was.

A sigh fell from his lips as he got up and walked over to his vanity. He sat down and stared at his reflection. "Somebody like that is waiting for you right now," His voice was no louder than a whisper as spoke before giving himself a sad smile.

The door swung open, startling him as Ten and Sicheng walked into his dorm. "Jungwoo It's Saturday and you're alone...what's going on?!" Ten said as he walked over and cupped Jungwoo's face. When he noticed the boys slightly red eyes and puffy cheeks, it was obvious he had been crying. "Babie what happened?"

"You're wearing a sad outfit, who do I have to beat up!" Sicheng yelled, punching the air dramatic which earned a small giggle from Jungwoo.

Tilting his head to the side to look at the boy, Ten reached out and brushed the hair out of his eyes, "Talk to me bab—"

"Oh no...are you okay?! Did I do something wrong? I knew I shouldn't have left." For some unknown reason, Seonghwa's voice made Jungwoo burst into tears. He ran over and forced his way into the mans arms.

A pout grew on Seonghwa's face as he tried not to cry himself. He gently rubbed the boys back, letting him get everything out.

"What's going on honey? Why're you upset?" Seonghwa made sure his voice was gentle so he wouldn't risk upsetting Jungwoo even more.

A loud sniffle echoed through the room as he picked up his head. "I—I'm never going to...fall in love!" That one sentence was enough to break every heart in the room.

"No...no that's not true. You'll fall in love I promise...you're going to find the best boy who'll love you and you'll love him." Seonghwa rambled, trying his best to comfort Jungwoo.

"I'm just s—so picky! You, Doyoung, and countless other boys have liked me b—but nobody feels right..."

When Seonghwa heard that, he wished he could find the perfect boy for Jungwoo. Because Jungwoo deserved the world, but he obviously didn't know that. "Hey, it's absolutely fine that nobody feels right. You're just waiting for the perfect person and there is nothing wrong with that. Don't cry over somebody you haven't even met yet, okay?"

Nodding, Jungwoo lifted his hand to wipe at his face he cringed when he saw the mascara smudged on his hand. He ran into the bathroom to get the mess off his face.

When he came back out, Seonghwa was still standing in the same spot. "Do you want to go get ice cream?" He asked, knowing it would make the boy feel better.

"Yes please!" Jungwoo squeaked as he quickly made sure he was presentable. After grabbing Seonghwa's hand, he skipped out of the room without a second thought.

"Did we really just get ditched?" Ten asked after when the door slammed.

A small laugh fell from Sicheng's lips, "He got excited...and at least he's not crying anymore."

Falling back onto Jungwoo's bed, Ten let out a dramatic sigh, "Him and Seonghwa would be perfect together! But I have to respect his wishes."

"Ten...he thinks of Seonghwa as a brother...that would be incest." Sicheng said sarcastically as he stood up and stretched his hand towards Ten. "Now come on, I'll make Yuta take us somewhere." 

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"Y'know, I really really love doing stuff like this with you...but I just don't want to upset you. You don't have to be so nice to me. I'll understand." Jungwoo muttered as him and Seonghwa were walking back to their dorm.

Seonghwa let out a small laugh, "Jungwoo, I'm not being nice to you because I have a crush on you. I'm over that, you're my friend now. As your friend I have to take care of you, I can't just let you cry I gotta do something."

A slight blush tinted Jungwoo's cheeks for some reason...It was just nice that somebody cared about him this much. "Thank you, Hwa. I'd still be a mess if it wasn't for you."

"That's what I'm here for." Seonghwa threw an arm around Jungwoo's shoulder as he got visibly excited, "Guess what! I have a date next week!"

"Oh my god, with who!" Sharing the excitement, Jungwoo jumped up and down.

Seonghwa had a giant smile on his face as he talked about this date, "His name is Hongjoong, and we've been talking for a while...I really like him."

A pout grew on Jungwoo's face when he realized something. "Does that mean we have to stop doing stuff like this?" His voice was small as he was scared of losing Seonghwa.

"No...never! We're just friends and I'm sure he'll understand that. I bet he'd love you."

It was almost funny how different Jungwoo started and ended the day. He was laughing and smiling with his friend instead of sobbing into his pillow. There was a newfound peace in his mind, he didn't need to rush things. Everything would fall into place. 

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