Together Forever | BTS FF •(DIS-CONTINUED)•

Chapter 2-First day

Jisoo's POV

I heard a knock at the door and was about to go get it but heard Y/N going to it so I kept unpacking my very many suitcases I brought with me. I was so excited to start a whole new part of my life here with the one person I trusted most. The view was amazing and there were so many people here in Seoul than the town I grew up in.

Although I wasn't excited to talk to people more often, I had started to open up more, and going to Y/N's house everyday after school really helped with my grades and anxiety. I'm excited now that we live together and can finally do whatever we want. 

*Time skip*

I just finished unpacking when I heard Y/N talking to someone and a pair of footsteps walking around. I peeked my head out to see who it was and saw that Rosé was in the kitchen looking for food in the refrigerator. The third person I trust most is Rosé ((the second is my mom) once I had an anxiety attack while in the hallway and luckily Rosé was walking down the hall and saw me sitting there with my head in my lap crying and helped me up, took me to the bathroom, and took care of me so I could go back to class without anyone knowing. She told me if this happened again I need to go get my medicine and if she needs help just ask the nurse if she can call her down and she will help. That's when I first realized I can trust her just like Y/N. Although she may not show that same Rosé from back in middle school anymore, I still know there's the same person somewhere deep in her who is kind and thoughtful.)

While Roséwas still looking through the fridge and saw nothing with a disappointed frown on her face Y/N said, "Did you think we would have food, stupid? We just got here. What do you expect, a whole gourmet meal sitting out in the open just for you?" I couldn't help but let out a little giggle at her statement. I was so excited to see Rosé and how she was doing because I hadn't seen her since she went to college three years ago. Although it doesn't seem like Y/N and Rosé get along well, I still know that they love each other and will protect each other no matter what.

I came out into the hallway to go say hi to Rosé, but I stopped when I heard Rosé say, "Where's your annoying, full-of-stupid-anxiety friend, she's taking forever." I didn't feel anything for a moment. All I felt was cold and empty. There were no emotions. Even though I felt nothing there was one tear that strolled down my cheek. All I knew right then and there was that she lost my trust and she was trying to hide it behind my back. I then started thinking about if Y/N was the same, but I erased that thought immediately but still thought about some of the other people I trusted. When I was going to take a step back I found a creaky spot in the wood (welp, there goes my plan to act like nothing happened and go to my room).

I slowly looked up to see Y/N's grey eyes staring at me with rage. But when she saw my tear, they then turned to guilt. I felt bad, but I couldn't take it anymore and ran to my room slamming the door. I could hear Y/N running after me to my room and knock on the door. All I could do was cry. I tried to respond but the tears kept coming and I felt so alone. I wanted Y/N but I couldn't tell her. 

I heard her say, "Jisoo, can I come in?" But this time I didn't even respond to her. I could only keep crying feeling guilty and asking myself why I was here in the first place. I mean all I bring to this world is hate and I ruin everyone's lives I'm in.

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After thinking for awhile about what my purpose is I finally fell asleep still crying.

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I woke up this morning to the sound of my alarm at 7 and had to get to my first class at 8:30. Still in my clothes from yesterday and remembering what all happened last night I drearily get out of bed not wanting to go anywhere and just sleep.