A Little Too Late

Chapter 4

-One day , as I was heading to the door of a coffee shop where I had a meeting with friends , I bumped into someone , I wasn't paying attention to where I was going and as I backed up to apologize , my eyes captured his , it was Aiden and it was mesmerizing . It felt like when I saw him after he came back from college. It was weird how we break contact every time for a long period but my feelings never change. I thought that I forgot about him after so many years, but I didn't. Actually, I just ignored the thoughts which revolved around him. It was like I put all my feelings and memories in a box and placed it in a corner. I opened my mouth to try to compose some meaningful words but nothing came out , those blue eyes made me forget how to breathe , as I became aware of how close his body was , my heart started beating fast , my pulse bumping under my skin so loud that I swore he could hear it . His eyes held mine for a while, then, someone interrupted us and I cursed him for that. I blinked twice to recognize the person who was standing right near him , and when I saw it was a silly blond girl who didn't stop smiling at me , it hit me , I looked back at him , eyes full of sorrows , like I was betrayed , I couldn't help myself but feeling that way . I walked out of the coffee shop speeding. All those feelings that I tried to ignore for about 3 years just came around a sudden and I hated him for that, every time I thought that I moved on with my life and I decided that he couldn't control me or have any impact on me, it faded away at his touch or at the eye-contact with those blue eyes. The whole way back home all I could think of was "Does he remember? Does he still feel the same way? What was he doing in Tennessee? Who was that girl? Did he move on?" So many unanswered questions. Since that day, we didn't meet again, but I couldn't get rid of him, my mind was full of thoughts turning around him. And with that, doubts started to come back, doubts about my love for Ronan and our entire relationship.