Shattered Pieces

Part One

Every night I'm alone these feelings I'm feeling just ain't alright,
I don't even know where to start but I'm alone every night.
But see that's part I'm not understanding this wasn't my life,
It's 2020 fucking 2020 I had goals and dreams by now I'm supposed to be someone's wife.

Twelve years ago I met a man I once called my everything,
We wasted so many years but never knew what life would really bring.
The secrets the betrayal broken trust and lust the lies he told,
I wasted nine years of my life with a man who turned my heart cold because he fold.

I couldn't believe my life had changed and a blink of an eye,
a baby a relationship the infidelities man the nerve of this guy.
While still living in our home with our kids and our family it was all a lie,
the deceit and to sit and my face and continue to lie he had a death wish I knew he was ready to die.

The rage in me that night I couldn't let him lie and not fight when that love in me turned into pure hate,
The man I rode for for while in prison came home to be with me I realize he got out never even took me on a real date.
All those years gone I'll never get them back and all the love I gave just to be stabbed in my back,
Then I've always been there for him made him man up be a daddy didn't mind picking up his lack.

It was never about the dopeboy the image the cars the money or the fb fame,
With me it was all about family structure love the household I use to want this man last name.
He use to call me his bestfriend his favorite girl but how could he hurt me that way,
Continue to fuck hoes lie stunt make promises just to make me stay.

What he don't understand Im woke now older maturer that situation made me grow,
From despression to stresssing I gain so much weight damn he made me feel so low.
You got on your feet and forgot about me and your kids got some money and start treating us hell a bogus,
then wanna come around like everything alright get the fuck on we ain't your homies.

Cause see the shit you and your family did to me you me y'all know I didn't deserve,
Years ago when shit got rocky I begged you to walk away I was kicking your shit out on the curb.
I told you I was done and you was begging me you'll make it right stay,
Just to dog me out treat me like a nobody cheat lie and dog me that way.

Wow I only stop because I got tired this my first time doing this on here I write all the time but I think I wanted others to hear I'll do Part 2 soon let me know what you guys think please give honest feedback back it will only make my writing better.

Destiny Shantell 😘