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part 1

Beginning: im at a one direction concert and im are really happy I finally get to see the boys perform. Durning the concert i notice niall looking at me and talking to harry about me. So after the concert i went to go meet them and once i got to niall niall smiled at me and i can't help but to blush! Then he stopes smiling cause he sees the cuts on my arm. as his smile fades his eyes meet mine. i glanced down at my wrists and quickly pull my sleeves down over them. i couldn't look back up at him. i was utterly embarrassed. that's when i felt his hand under my chin, he pulled my face up to meet and and said, "Please stop...you don't have to hurt your self for what other people did. Promise me you will stop?" As i say yes niall goes in for a hug. But he turns it in to more then just a hug cause niall goes in for a kiss! at first i just stand there in shock as his soft lips press to mine. after a few seconds I find myself kissing him back. I close my eyes and enjoy the kiss. for the few seconds it lasted, i forgot about all my problems, for just a few seconds everything had meaning. A few seconds later he pulled away and once I open my eyes every one around us was in shock. Once I looked back at niall his blue eyes were staring back at me. I looked down and started to cry niall asked what was wrong with me and all I said was "what will the fans do to me?" he cupped my face in his hands and said "you don't have to worry about them. they'll understand please don't cry." he wiped my tears away with his thumbs and pulled me in for a hug. I hugged him back and nuzzled my head into his chest. I felt at home. when the meet and greet was over I was trying to leave but the fan were every where and they were giving me hate! I blocked it out and after I got though the crowd I got in the car and waiting for my brother to drive off but right before he did niall was at my car door waiting for me to let him in so he could give me his number but once I looked back I saw we were never getting out if this place cause the fans were pissed off because I got niall I couldn't understand why the fans were so angry with me. all these years they had talked about how they wanted niall to be with a fan and now that he was talking to one they were angry. it stressed me out so badly I started to cry. I was also upset because since it was so crazy with all the fans I never got nialls number, I would never see him again Once me and brother got on road and started to drive away we noticed a black car following us so we pulled over and my brother got out first to see who it was once my brother saw it was niall he told me to come over and talk to him I was shocked. I nervously got out of the car and approached him. as soon as he saw me a smile crept onto his face. I couldn't help but smile back. he invited me into his car so we could talk. I looked at my brother who gave me a nod of approval. I sat next to him in the car as he took my hands in his. "what is you name?" he asked. "y/n." I responded. he smiled "that's a beautiful name." "thank you." I blushed. "you're welcome" sweetie he said After we talk for awhile he asked for my phone so he could put his number in. Once he put it in I texted him so he had my number once we done talking he kissed me again! After one min I got out of the car and walked to my brothers car we were driving away I couldn't help but grin ear to ear knowing that my life could be changing. knowing that maybe for once I would have a meaning in my life. I was so excited to see where this would go 5 mins after we left niall texted me I love you and all I did was look at my brother and show him my phone my brother was happy for me. I texted niall back I love you too! We were talking all night and day and then one day he ask of me to meant up with him at his house he gave me his address and I met him there. it was a beautiful place. guitars in practically every room, pictures of him and the guys on all the walls. it was so sweet. I stood in his living room until I heard foot steps coming down the stairs. it was niall. I smiled as I ran up to him and hugged him deeply. I breathed in his essence. it took me to another world. Once the hug was over I looked behind him and saw four boys behind him smiling at me. Then I looked back at niall and he said "do you want to meet the boys?" Once I said yes they all came running to me and all hugged me. Until harry saw my Cuts he pulled away then louis them liam then zayn. Once they all saw them they looked at niall and asked why I felt puny. I felt as though they thought i was a freak. I wanted to run away but I was frozen. niall pulled me into his arms. "listen guys I'm not sure why she does it but she definitely doesn't have to especially since she has us now." the guys all nodded and smiled they all hugged me and told me that if I ever needed anything they would be there. I felt safe around them i felt protected After a few mins of hanging out niall pulled me out of the room to ask me something he closed the door behind him as he approached me. his breath was shaky he sounded nervous. "y/n..." he said. "I need to ask you something." "yes niall?" I replied. he took my hands in his and looked in my eyes. after what seemed like years of waiting he said "will you be my girlfriend." I didn't wait at all I said yes then jumped in his arms I was was so happy I yelled to the top of my lugs "niall horan is my boyfriend!" After I yelled that the boys ran into the room and ask what happened in here and all niall said was I'm taken and all the boys slowly put a smile on their faces once we all had a group hug they had to go to a interview and niall asked if I wanted to go and I said yes. During the interview they asked every one who was taken and louis liam zayn and niall raised there hands and they ask who niall was dating and he said "y/n." and every one went crazy I was a little nervous that he has told everyone that we together already since I wasn't exactly the most stable of people but when they turned the camera towards me I forced myself to smile. I felt sick to my stomach. I knew what the fans would do. I am one. I've been in this fandom a long time and i know how they treat the girlfriends. my stomach was in knots I walked to niall and sat down next to him they ask me how long we have been dating and that's when the whole band yelled "one hour!" and every one went crazy again once every one shut up they asked one more thing and it made me almost cry cause they asked why I had cuts on my wrist I was appalled at the fact that they even said anything about it. I stood up burning with anger and yelled "why would you ever ask someone that?!" before I stomped my foot and walked out of the frame. frantic looks flew about the room as I stormed out of the building Niall and the boys came running after me and stopped me and ask what was wrong..