What can I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I love the way she blushes at my teases, the way she fusses over my "faked" crying and her silly mistakes. Somehow, I wished I could have told her that I love her but now there's no hope in doing so. For now, it's rather too late- too late for me to do so.
She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she blushes and the way she sees life and love.
I could still remember the first time we met; I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with since Reito, Haruka and Yukino. Haruka and Yukino moved to Tokyo and Reito and his family just moved out to America. And so I climbed up our tree house and saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a car was following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when out came the loveliest girl I've seen. She was four years old that time, a tomboy, but she was really beautiful. She had long dark straight hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had skin like porcelain and green eyes which could make anyone lose their heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. She smiled and waved her hand. I waved back then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?" she blushed and answered, "May I?" she looked really cute especially with that blush on her face. So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, "By the way, my name's Natsuki Kuga, what's yours?" I answered, "My name is Shizuru Fujino but then you can call me Shizuru, Natsuki-chan." She smiled and said, "Well I like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, "Thanks. This used to be our "office". We used to play student council, I am the president and Reito is the vice president while Haruka and Yukino are the executives. They were my only friends and I really miss them..." At those last words, it made me sad to think that my only friends left me. She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with them and I could be your new best friend. I never had a girl for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play that student council thingy and I have a bicycle so we could also go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough." Then she held her hand and said, "It's a deal then!" So that's how it started.
So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like playing house and tea but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she spilled tea at my dress and I started to "cry", she panicked then and kept apologizing for her clumsiness. I remembered the time when I tripped and sprained my ankle when I tried to rescue a puppy because Natsuki was near to tears when she saw the helpless little pup. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.
The lake behind the shrine was our favorite place to hang out. I would pack us food and later eat them under the big sakura tree. There was a special spot in the tree over looking the lake which the two of us would sit together and tell each other's dreams. She dreams of being a racer and she knows my dream of becoming a business woman and owning my own corporation. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. It made me like her even more.
As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once, when we were at the shrine hands intertwined together, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.
