Me & You: Between Life And Death (COMPLETE)

Chapter 25

Maaga kaming nagising. We ate at the Rice Restaurant where it offers international and local cuisine.

Masayang masaya sila Kuya sa balita na kami na ni Jason that finally, I gave him a chance. I know this will not be easy for us but I will give my utmost effort para iparamdam sa kanya na kamahal-mahal siya.

Right after we ate, we head back to our suite. I just wear our shirt, we're in uniform. I paired it with my high-waisted jeans and black sneakers. I fixed my hair and my face, very simple lang.

Halos karamihan ng nasa resort ay nakasuot ng same shirt kagaya sa amin at marami rin pala kami dahil may iba pang dumarating.

From our church, kami lang ni Jason ang nag-joined dito dahil may event rin sa Manila. They were also busy for summer events...

Sumama kami dito dahil bukod si kuya ang isa sa organizer ay gusto ko rin sila makasama ng pamilya niya. Talagang siningit ko ito sa schedule ko kahit na masyadong maraming ginagawa sa opisina.

I've been working for CT Corp as an accountant though a beginner for two years. Right after passing the CPALE, Dad offered me to work in our company but accordingly to my will. I don't want special treatments. When he agreed with it, I decided to go. But I'm still thinking if magtatagal ba ako roon.

Gusto ko kasi na paghirapan ko ang lahat ng bagay na mayroon ako kahit pa galing ako sa isang mayamang pamilya.

"Here you go," he said. Isinuot niya ang ID ko sa akin then he fixed my hair after and smiled.

I held his ID. "Jaysoned?" I asked habang natatawa. Mali kasi ang spelling na nakalagay sa ID niya.

"Nagkamali kasi si ate," he explained ng natatawa rin.

Right after we registered, we head inside Reyna Ballroom. I roamed my eyes around this place and the seats were about three hundred to be filled.

Jason suddenly held my hand and smiled at me.

"Let's go?"

I just nodded then we walked to the front seat where Kuya's seat located. When we got there, Jason held my hand. I looked at it then I looked at him after. I smiled and he smiled, too as held my hand tighter.

The program started... from Praise and worship to welcoming remarks. I and Jason enjoyed this perfect moment as we raised up our hands together.

I closed my eyes and feel the presence of God in this place. I want to heal from anything from my past, but I have to be closer to the One where healing comes from because His ability to heal is greater than my ability to be broken.⁣⁣
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I hope that healing will come.⁣..

After that, we sat down. The speaker welcomed the International Ministry, they are from Louisiana.

The two days event is also about introducing different kind of missions that whoever wants to join will just signed up, after. It also introduce songs, talents, programs and more. This is more about empowering youth when it comes to their faith.

"Everybody, our next one is the JAM mission trips!" he exclaimed then he went at the backstage.

The white screen played

JAM. Jesus Above Music. There were many youth in that trip. They had musical instruments and some are playing, some are not.

They have cultural differences but they are one in making melody.

The video introduced the department from acoustic, to drums, to singing, to electric and to piano.

Someone's standing against the camera.

"Hey guys! This is Adriel..." the girl behind the camera introduced him. Then he faced the camera and stared at it.

I gulped in disbelief.

"Guys, we're from the piano department. I'm their teacher. I also encourage you if you want to join our mission trips... just sign up to our website. Again, I'm Adriel Charles Santle and this is my JAM team, thanks for watching!" he said with a smile.

My eyes opened wide when he walked up at the stage, holding someone's hand... the girl from the video. They're holding hands and the youth were with them at the back. Then they bowed together.

Everyone gave them a round of applause. I tried to gasped some air. I know that any minute ay babagsak na ang mga luha ko.

He's here. It's real.

I can't help thinking that all those time that he was gone, he was busy changing himself, finding his purpose.

The man that I love... found himself back into order. I should be happy for him. I should rejoice that my pain is not in vain but I couldn't find the reason in my heart to be glad. The sword he left me, it's still here... fresh and thrust deep inside. Doubtlessly that the wounds became scars but this sword isn't.

Jason looked at me worriedly. Ngumiti ako sa kanya, habang pumapatak na ang mga luha mula sa aking mga mata. Hindi ko na kayang pigilan. I wiped my tears away dahil baka makita ako ni kuya na umiiyak.

"Go..." he whispered.

Nang nagpalakpakan ang lahat at tumayo, I quickly grabbed the chance to ran outside of this hall... to escape this moment.

I waddled myself to the sandbar because this place is the perfect isolation that I need right now. I bent my knee and hugged my knees while crying.

I recalled it again. I saw him. This is real. I just can't believe that he ran away from me. In exchanged, he found himself back. I cried silently. Tahimik na tinatago ang paghikbi ko.

Adriel, if losing you is the way of finding yourself back into its rightful place. I should be happy to let you go... even if it hurts.

Thank you, God! Thank you for saving him, for saving him from his anger and from everything that was holding him before to come back to you.

I sighed heavily as I watched the clouds passed by into my vision. Hindi ko naisip na ganito kabilis ang nangyayari. I and Jason are together now, as a couple and I promised to give him a chance. I will not fail him. I will give it a try...

Right after kong ayusin ang sarili ko mula sa pag-iyak, I went back inside Reyna Ballroom. I sat down back to my seat because the message has started.

Jason looked at me and gave me his wonderful smile, hiding his pain inside. I know he's wondering if I've change my mind. I held his hand and caressed it while looking at it. I held it tighter then I smiled at him.

Right now, I want him to know that the same decision I've made last night is the same decision I'm going to make.

I leaned my head to side of his chest, below his chin, rested it there comfortably while listening to the message of Pastor Vienz. He placed his arms around my shoulder as he covered me with it.

Jason has been always thoughtful as he is. He always make sure that I got everything I need. He comforts me and love me without asking in return but even though he's almost perfect... why it seems not right?

The first day of the conference ended. We had a great time. It feel so good that after all that happened, I found rest in God's presence.

The message has really something to do with me. Pakiramdam ko that every word were meant for me. Bawat salita na sinasabi ni Pastor Vienz kanina really gave a strike of arrows in my heart... painful but it's true.

Let go and let God. Surely, He has a reason for everything and it will always counts...