HIDDEN FEELINGS

Michelles pov

It had been three long months since Emily went missing and with it my relationship with Aaron am not a fool I know Aaron has never loved me the way he loves Emily but I thought he would atleast respect me but I was so wrong because the only thing he cares about now is Emily and finding her was his number one proity  Like I  didn't matter  but am also a woman who is sexually active as one I have needs that I expect my boyfriend to full fill

But these days all he does he side lines me like I don't even matter Aaron had very high sexual desire for me we had sex all time and our relationship was going great but now that Emily's is missing I feel like a third will in my own relationship Emily comes before me it's like am forcing Aaron to be with me i didn't like he was my boyfriend but he was acting like he was Emily's instead

The day Aaron kissed for the first time during the camping trip to eden woods I didn't force him he kissed me willingly, why is he playing with my emotions now, my heart can't take it yet he knows how much I love and care for him what does Emily have that I don't and today when I questioned him he said he will sleep with me if I manage to  to make him want me

I did everything humanly possible to please him but Emily's has her hooks into him so deep that I have no way in  what hurts the most am competing with woman who has only brought him pain she was the  reason why Aaron was in hospital in the first place I was the one who nursed him back to health ; didn't my feelings matter or does Aaron see  as a machine a toy he could play with and dump

The sounds of door shutting bring back to reality my boo was home my smile widened instantly after seeing him he was the light of my life 

"Hey  babe what's for dinner ." Whenever he called me babe I would die from pure joy

"Marconi and cheese."I replied smiling

"That's good am furnished ,"

While heating up his food  in microwave asked him about his day  that's when things went from bad to worse

"Aaron did find Emily "

No the kidnappers left us dead girl who turned out not be Emily threatened that if kept searching Emily the next time the body will revive will be here, am so scared Michelle

Don't worry baby I will take for you, you know have the perfect remedy whenever you're stressed

"Michelle please not tonight  am tired , Emily could be hurt we found jacket it covered with blood  I need to sleep so we can begin search early in morning."  Aaron replies

I know  you were tired you tell me this everyday but as a woman I have needs you  know can't keep putting me off I know am not as pretty as Emily and I know she is the love of your life but I need you right now  look at what am wearing it's all yours."

"Not right now am not in mood for sex , please understand." 

"I can't understand ever since we began this relationship you have only touched me once and times when you kiss me but actual sex we have only  had it once and as sexually active woman can't I expect it of my boyfriend ."

You should but am not in mood right now Emily is missing and you want sex our friend is missing don't you care ." Aaron explains

"I care but I have needs to and today am not taking no for answer you will have to have sex with me."  Michelle insisted

"If I do , will you leave me alone ?" Aaron questions

"Yes I will."

"Ok am here do whatever you want but am not touching you am tired  am sure my boy won't raise if you fail to make me hard will you leave me alone ."

"Fine I know yu will raise for me."

I started doing all I could  from performing a strip tease to blowing him nothing worked 
I wasn't  I woman and Am ain't I  beautiful Aaron always made feel so ugly especially when he rejected me.  His excuse was that he was never in mood for sex  which  always knew was lie it was so frustrating I practically  threw myself at  him in best lagiere peice I could find but he rejected me what in the hell do I have to do to make him love me

  I had done everything I could think of to make him want me but I failed yet again cause of Emily and when realized this her infuriated  ,angry consumed with rage,   I  began rant and argue with him  but as usual it made no difference  to him  cause I didn't matter to him one bit . But at this  point I  didn't care he was going to hear me out come what may  when Aaron so  that wasn't giong stop  I wasn't going  take no for answer   He takes to our room I was so happy that I got my way   But I was so wrong he instead locked me in and walked out , when locked me way he usually slept on the couch .

I was sure that he will lay his head on the couch  I shouted  for him to open  for me but he didn't  I eventually gave up just like that I fell a sleep  the following morning the buzzing of Aaron's phone wakes me up  he must have received a notifications  from the police that. They had a location of Emily  since that's only thing he cares about now   He immediately got dressed   Could hear the banging of sauce pans and plates which meant he was now in the kitchen making made breakfast for me and him   it was beacon eggs  tossed  bread with mango  juice and coffee I could smell the aroma from  the room  all done I plate the food  Opens the door and walked out  I checked the door and it was finally open   I trudged to kitchen half a sleep to find folded note beside my plated breakfast un folded it and it read

Michelle , am truly  sorry for how I acted last night  I acted like total douche bag . but wasn't in the mood for sex  not that's an excuse ,  I have known Emily for the longest time one cant burry feelings like that over night it takes time,  patience, perseverance.

but I want to you know though I love her I chose you  , you are my confidant my joy remedy one who keeps me sane soon you will be love of my life giving how beautiful  your soul is am bound to fall in love with you .

I don't know what did in life to deserve you,  should trust me cause  I know with time I will grow to love you too   It's looks like they found Emily is location  am going to pick her God willing she is there cause if she is not  I will blame myself go to France and never return cause if she is not with her family and friends then why should I . Ps : I left your breakfast in microwave  the some mango juice on the counter top I also left you coffee in the coffee maker  am truly sorry about last night  see you later my sassy Latina 
Aaron

Aaron always apologized whenever he was rude to me and would always forgive him may be Rachel was right and he was using me as his second fiddle  Rachel was friend  I met during cheer camp she was practically my soul sister after Emily  and lately have been seeing more of her since me and Emily fell out  it was time I took her advice and let Aaron know my worth, I was giong to fight to what belongs to me no matter the cost   Where was the cause of my problems  knowing her she was on beach somewhere soaking in the sun rays while Aaron  was here searching for her like mad man  abknown to Michelle Emily was in deep water fighting for her life