You Found Me...

Chapter 1

" I found God, on the corner of First and Amistad, where the west was all but won..." I sang softly as I knocked on the door of my boyfriends house.

It had been pretty rough lately, everyone judging us because we finally came out and told the world we were gay.

Yes, headlines everywhere "Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles come out!"

Why could no one accept us?

Why could no one be happy for us?
I asked myself these questions every time I saw people talk about it.

I stood there waiting for about a minute just thinking as the rain hit the pavement creating a soothing noise.

No answer.

I knocked again, his car was outside, so it was strange that he wasn't answering.

We lived in different houses, I had a key though. I stood in the rain again for another minute.

No answer again.

Finally, I pulled out my key and stuck it into the key slot and gently turned the knob and shuffled into his flat hanging my wet coat in the coat hanger.

"I'm home!" I yelled gently.

No answer again.

I found it strange, his car was outside, and there was a faint sound of music coming from his room.

I slowly walked upstairs looking around wondering if he was planning to scare me but he was nowhere in sight.

"Babe? I'm home... Don't you wanna see me?" I asked with a bit of concern in my voice.

Again, there was no answer.

I made my way up to his room and pressed my ear against the door.

He had been listening to the same radio station as me.

"All I needed was a call, that never came. To the corner of First and Amistad..."

Slowly I opened the door and saw the worst thing I could ever imagine.

"Lost and insecure... You found me, you found me..."

There he was. His body was there, hanging in the middle of his room. His legs in the air and a chair knocked over with several empty pill bottles on the floor.

"No! No! Why! Why would you do this to yourself?!" I shouted as the hot tears were falling from my eyes and rolling onto my cheeks.

I quickly cut the rope and watched terrified as his body plopped onto the floor. I kneeled by him, my hands were shaky.

"Please... Please don't leave me, I need you, you're my only source of happiness, please wake up, we can make this work... Who cares what everyone else says..." I said as I gently started taking the rope off from around his neck and immediately checked for a pulse.

Nothing.

"No! No! Please! I need you! I need you! Don't leave me alone! You were the only one who understood me!" I shouted with anger and frustration.

I could've stopped this. It was my fault.

If I would've come over earlier like I said I was, we would be on the couch. He would be sitting on my lap, I'd be playing with his hair and he'd give me random neck kisses.

But now... I didn't know what to do, I called an ambulance and waited patiently by his body.

I held his hand and gently stroked it with my thumb. It was cold...

"How long could he have been here for?" I asked myself.

15 minutes passed

The ambulance still hadn't come and I was now worried I was gunna lose him. I looked over by the chair remembering that there were several pills scattered on the floor.

With no motivation what so ever and multiple tears streaming down my face I dragged my body toward the pills and started taking them one by one.

Our lives had changed drastically.... But I never thought this would happen because it wasn't always like this...

A/N: Alright guys! I told you I was gunna start new, so tell me what you guys think about this chapter and leave some comments below. Love you guys!!