My sister's boyfriend

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Previously on my sister's boyfriend:

9 months later

I had my daughter, Anastaisa. Mateo is now 2. We live in L.A. Derek and I are taking a break, we thought that we should think about our choices in life and make sure that we actually want to be together, we got together too young, I think that we just rushed it, I still love him but I just dont understand my feelings right now. I love him with all my heart, he was always there for me and I will always be there for him and he knows that. It's just so hard, I just want to live just like other people my age worrying about college, but now I have to worry about my three kids, I love them to death but I just wish that it didnt happen so young. Derek left me after Emil didnt make it.

Derek is the one that wanted to take a break, at first I didnt understand, he is the one that took us to L.A. then he just dropped the announcement that he wanted to take a break if we are being honest, I dont understand. I just dont, how can you tell someone that you love them with all your heart and then just leave them like they are nothing, I just dont understand what is the point of getting with someone just leave them at their lowest.

NOW-

Derek's POV-

I know that it was my idea to move to L.A. Once we got here, I realized that I dont know if I want to be with Alessya, for the rest of my life, yes I know that I married her, but I dont know about for the rest of my life. I dont want to be tied down, I think that I rushed it, because I couldn't admit, that I still loved Maria. I have talked to Maria, she got help, she is still the same person that I dated in high school. Yes, she made mistakes, everyone has. I still haven't told Alessya, about this, I planned on telling her this afternoon. it's just losing Emil was hard, I didnt think that I could live that lifestyle.

Y/N's POV-

I received a phone call from Derek, he asked if we could meet up, I agreed, of course, I got in my car and took the kids to the babysitter that I had, I dropped them off and started to drive towards the coffee shop that Derek wanted to meet up at. I parked and got there, I walked in, he was already there and he ordered, I walked over there. 

y/n- hey

Derek- ooh hey, 

Derek- please take a seat

y/n- so what did you want to talk about

Derek- first, I just want to apologize that I left you after Emil

I scoffed and shook my head 'no'

Derek- I know that I was in the wrong, I shouldn't have left you after that, it just hurt so bad

y/n- you dont think that I was hurt, I lost him too, you just left and acted like you were the only one that lost him.

Derek- I know, I just didn't think that you would understand

y/n- what dont I understand, you left me because you were hurt because you felt like you were the only one that cared about Emil and that I didnt understand your pain, I fucking gave birth to him, 

I wiped my tears, 

Derek- you are blowing this out of proportion,

y/n- I can't believe you, you were the one that wanted to move here, then you just got up and left.

Derek- I had to rethink about my life,

y/n- you thought that you didnt want to be with me anymore, who is it this time, someone new or old

Derek looked shocked

y/n- I know that you are feeling someone else, I dont have your attention anymore, so who is it

Derek- Maria, he said whispering

y/n- ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS

Derek- alessya, stop making a scene

y/n- why I said my voice was breaking but I didnt care

Derek- she changed

I shook my head in disbelief, I looked around, people were looking at us, I honestly didnt care, I grabbed my purse, I looked at him one more time, he didnt care, he never did, I walked out, I could hear him yell my name but I honestly didnt care. I pushed past people that were outside the door, I wiped my tears and walked straight to my car,

I called my babysitter telling her that I won't be there to pick them up for another hour, she understood and hung up. I just needed some time to process this information.

After everything that we went through, he wants to go back to that psychotic person, she literally killed someone and stalked us, kidnapped me and yet he still runs back to her, and yet I was the hoe when I was friends with Mattia, times have changed, I just dont understand people anymore. 

I looked at the time, I was already late to pick up the kids, damn, I really took that long. I started to drive to the babysitter's, I got there and picked the kids up, when I was about to drive away Derek texted me.

Derek

-alessya, can we please talk about this

I decided just to leave him on read, I didnt have the energy to deal with that anymore,

Songs I listened to while making this:

Love Dont Cost A Thing- Marmar Oso (album)