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☆ *･゜ﾟ･* Chapter 39 *･゜ﾟ･* ☆

(Renjun pink hair is superior 😌💚)

Author POV

Y/n was crying in his embrace, he hugged her even more tightly knowing she was really heartbroken..

Jaemin: *pats her back* It'll be okay Y/n, we're here for you..

Y/n: *sob* Jaemin-ah..

Jaemin: Shhhh it's okay, it's okay...

Y/n: *cry even more* I'm hurt..

Jaemin: It's normal Y/n...

Y/n: I'm so stupid..

Jaemin: Don't say that.. you're not stupid.. you just didn't wanted to be a bad friend

Y/n: I shouldn't have helped her...

Jaemin: Shh it's okay, don't blame yourself too much.

Haechan: *worried* Y/N-AH

Jaemin: Haechan. Not now please, don't scream

Haechan: *look down* I'm sorry

Jaemin walked back to Y/n and sat on the bench.

Y/n: I'm sorry..

Jaemin: For what?

Y/n: For not being enough for him that he needed to go to my best friend...

Jaemin: Hey.. let him be.. if he ended up dating Y/f/n it's because he didn't deserved you

Y/n: You're saying that but I know that he will never love me anyways.

Jaemin: *sigh* Want me to say something about him?

Y/n hummed

Jaemin: He actually does

Y/n: Then why did he chose her..

Jaemin: I'm not the one who should tell you that.. he needs to tell you by himself.

Y/n: Classes are about to start you can go ahead.

Jaemin: Are you sure you're going to be okay?

She nodded, her eyes still full of tears.

Jaemin: Tell me if you need anything, okay?

Y/n: *nod* I will..

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Jaemin POV

How the hell did he chose that bitch instead of Y/n.. I don't even know how he could see kindness in her while she was literally obliging Y/n to not spend time with him.

Dang that dude is really blind and clueless, I'm sure deep down he knows that it's Y/n he loves, not that « giRL ».

Haechan: Jaemin-ah.. is she okay?

Jaemin: *sigh* No, not at all. He really broke her heart.

He looked down, clenching his fists. I know he is angry, he is probably telling himself that he wasn't able to protect Y/n.. he really is a good brother.. but such an overprotective one

Jaemin: Take care of her when you two get home.

Haechan: I will, I hate seeing her sad..

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Y/n POV

I got in class, still sad, my eyes were swollen, probably red, and it stings. When I saw Y/f/n waving at me with Jisung beside her, I put a forced smile on my face.

Y/f/n: Y/n-ah! I need to talk to you later!

Y/n: Sure!

I went on my seat and sat beside Taehyun who was already there.

I crossed my arms and rested my head on them, facing the table. Tears started to built up in my eyes again, and I softly sniffed so no one could hear it.

Taehyun: *worried* Y/n-ah, are you okay?

I lifted a little my head, not letting him seeing my eyes.

Y/n: Yeah, I'm just a little tired. I haven't got much sleep last night.

Taehyun: *raise his eyebrow* Are you sure?

Y/n: Yes..

Taehyun: Hmm, tell me if there anything okay? Maybe I will be able to help.

Y/n: Yup, thanks Taehyun

Y/f/n: Baby~ what about eating together for lunch??

Jisung: Erm.. it's weird when you call me « baby ».. but sure we can eat together.

Y/f/n: Hehe thank you Jisungie~ *kiss him on the cheek*

Taehyun: *mumbles* Ew, at least don't do it in public. We don't want to see that shit.

I chuckled at his words, even though my heart breaks every time I see and imagine myself together.. I knew it and I said it, I have to move on from Jisung... why do I had to have a stupid crush on him..

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The bell rang, which means it was lunch time. I took my stuff and went to the rooftop alone. I sat in the corner of the rooftop where no one can see or bothers me.

I don't want to eat, I don't want to see anyone... I just want to stay alone without being judged by everyone. I want to cry... I feel empty.. and lonely.. but I think it's better like that... it's not like I wasn't used to be hurt anyway.

I looked up at the sky, took my phone, plugged my earphones and started playing my sad playlist. I may be all colored and smiley outside but that doesn't mean I can't be sad and have dark moments...

I teared up, making my vision all blurry. Here I was, crying alone in the corner of the rooftop listening to sad music, because of my « best friend » who is now dating my crush..

I am hungry but I don't want to eat, I'm not in the mood to eat, I don't care if I'm starving, I just want to go home. Plop myself on my bed and cry. You guys probably think that it's not a big deal and that I'm probably overreacting.. but it still hurts, a lot.

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Author POV

Y/f/n was in the middle of the schoolyard, her friends all around her.

Y/f/n: Guys, guess what~ I'm finally dating Jisung~

Girl 1: Wow~ you're lucky!

Boy 1: Since when?

Y/f/n: Yesterday. But I saw Y/n, when she saw me kissing his cheek.

Girl 2: How did she reacted? I'm sure that nerd would have been so devastated *giggles*

Girl 3: *laugh* Yeah she is right! After all seeing her « best friend » dating her crush would have break her poor little heart~

Boy 2: When are you going to stop acting like her best friend?

Y/f/n: From now on~ I got Jisung and that's all I wanted~ Now I can hurt her as much as I want~ but I will first start to ruin her reputation.

Boy 3: And what are you going to do?

Y/f/n: Spread some bad rumors about her, just like last time~ I will make everyone hate that bitch.

Girl 4: Shall we start spreading the rumors?

Y/f/n: Yes, I don't want her to be happy if I'm not 100% too.

Helloo, I made this chapter a little bit longer today and I think I will always do it like that from now on. I would like to say that if you got heartbroken don't worry, things like that always happen. But you need to know that you're going to be okay cuz I know you can be strong. They didn't deserved you and it's what you need to tell yourself.
Have a good day/night and take care of you! I hope you're okay, and that you're doing well 💚