“Alright then, if my mother is a quote, unquote wrong attachment, then what is my right attachment? I asked him with a taint of skepticism in my tone. I truly meant no disrespect to him, it’s just that I still wasn’t sure about the whole “right need to love” idea. I had a funny feeling it was because I’ve always loved from the “wrong need.” You think?
I’ve heard people say that doing the same thing over and over expecting different results is insanity, and like everyone else that subscribes to some level of higher intelligence, I’ve always agreed. But, I don’t think people truly know how to stop doing the same thing. I think we just do the same thing in a different way. Now, that to me is truly insane! Six marriages later, I don’t have a problem with confessing that I think I know a bit about insanity.
“You’re right attachment is the source of origination, my beloved. It’s where your soul came from", he said.
"Ok, that sounds all good, and I understand the words you are saying, but forgive me, I don’t have a clue as to what exactly is my “source of origination.” Is it like how people trace their history back to their original ancestors?" I asked him from a genuine want to know kind of humility that surfaced from that deep new place of thirst for the truth that had recently been born within me.
“No, my beloved. It’s not like that at all," he said without any hint of condescension for my intellectualizing of the sacred place he was talking about.
Of course it wasn’t. Nothing he said to me was like anything I had ever heard before, or could reach for in the volumes of knowledge I had accumulated from the school of hard knocks I still hadn’t graduated from in over 50 years of attendance.
“You are separated from your true mother. Your true mother is the land or place where your soul is at peace. You will always feel this separation until you make your return to your true mother. When you do, you will have a right attachment. Your right attachment will develop your right need for love,” he explained as if everything he said would echo something so familiar to my soul. Oddly enough, it did.
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A Right Need
Short StoryA divorced woman's emancipation from her wrong attachment to her mother, and the healing she finds through the discovery of the right need for love.
