Me & You: Between Life And Death (COMPLETE)

Chapter 35

Before I rallied back, I know that it will not be easy as I thought. The great and strong wall that she built around her will not be facilely perish. It's more arduous than it insinuate. But it's more ameliorate to never desire a facile victories, a misleading one, a war that's short and relatively painless. If pain is what I need to endure to be with her, then I'll endure it forever.

Tahimik kong pinagmamasdan si Betryle mula sa hindi kalayuang mesa. She gazed her eyes at him, with the one that claimed to be her first love, being serenaded by the sweet symphony. Maybe she gained her memories back and remember him.

I took a deep breath matapos kong uminom ng tubig.

“Kuya, I already learned your piece…” ani Leonard.

“That’s good to hear…” sambit ko habang nakatingin pa rin sa direksyon nila Betryle na mukhang masayang nag-uusap. I'm wearing a black cap, white shirt and faded jeans kaya siguro ay hindi nila ako makilala. Hindi rin nila ako makita dahil may nakaharang na mga malalaking halaman sa tabi ng mesa namin.

“Wait, I’ll try to play it for you…” tumayo siya at tumungo sa piano malapit sa mesa nila.

Nang ilang saglit ay tumayo si Betryle. Mas natanaw ko ang ganda ng kanyang mukha… inabot ko ang dulo nang kaya kong abutin hangga’t sa maglaho na siya sa aking paningin. Naglakad patungo sa banyo.

Pinakinggan ko si Leonard na tinutugtog ang sarili kong gawa… for a while, it brings back all of our memories. Isang napaka-gandang alaala.

All of a sudden ay huminto si Leonard sa pagtugtog at hindi pinatapos hanggang dulo. Nang tumayo ako ay gulat, kausap niya si Betryle. Hindi ko matanaw ang mukha nila dahil may ilang dumadaan sa aking harapan. Nang ibaling kong muli ang paningin, bigla nalang siyang nawala.

“Kuya, someone asked me who taught me your piece. Then, she just walked out…” takang sambit ni Leonard saka umupo.

“Wait for me here…” paalam ko at tumango siya.

I walked slowly outside of Sala Lobby Lounge but I stopped when I saw them hugging. I took a step back behind the door at pinakinggan ang kanilang pag-uusap. I grunted softly to suppressed my tears.

My eyes slowly build a streaming water, my tears fell silently. I was wrong. I thought she already moved on. I thought I only had a little chance to win her back but until now, it's me. It was always me. The wall she built wasn't meant for me, it's for Jason. He tried to climbed it up for so long to get her back.

A fortuitous one, I don't have any reasons to celebrate, to rejoice... because now, it's over. The war is over. Before I realized that it anteriorly started, it's already finished. I wasted so much time. While I'm away preparing myself for this moment, Jason about to reach the end of the wall, and now he already did. He won her back. Nakakalungkot at puno ng pagsisisi dahil nahuli ako...

I closed my eyes for a moment when they left. I just watched their shadow fades. I could hear their footsteps tapped the floors of my heart when I sight them. Humingap ako ng konting hangin saka tumungo diretso sa suite. 

Tahimik na umiiyak. Iba pala talaga ang sakit na kayang ibigay sa’yo ng taong mahal mo. Sakit na walang katumbas, nag-iisa. Pumunta ako sa banyo at pinagmasdan ang sarili ko. I can clearly see the pain in my eyes.

His plan over yours. I reminded myself again.

Kahit ganito man ang nangyari… siguradong may dahilan. Hindi na ako nangangamba pa. Hindi ko na mahanap sa puso ko ang mga tanong at pagrereklamo sa halip ay sakit ang mas lamang. Tears fell down my cheeks as my shoulders shook pain.