It always starts off with you not getting attition.
As soon as a new sibling yeah it is a good thing but your hole world changes.
This is my life
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My mom and dad split up when i was little and it was hard for us. As we gt older me and my twin sister and alot of choices we had to make..
If we wanted to go to my dads house for a birthday or go to a party with my mom.. I never like saying no to them because i feel like the bad guy and im just sitting here like what the hell..
Why do i have to do all the work making all the choices! Its so fucking hard, you dont want to tell them no im going here so u have to pick..
My dad got us alot of stuff and even though my mom had 2 jobs at the time you dont no how hard it was for her to take care of 5 kids....
Oh yeah.... talk about a older brother a younger brother and 2 sisters.
Thats a hand full. Its hard for me because my mom told me i was (dis-lex-ic)
So me going to school and the teacher telling me to out loud was like my heart dropping in my ass... when i tell the teacher no everone looks at me and says she cant read and im looking around trying not to cry. I wanted to go home and kill my self. Even though
It felt like the world was changing and turning on me....
I felt like taking a knife and stabbing my self in the stomach.... and thats what i did when i was little..
It was early in the morning and i remembered how the class laughed at me so i took a knife and pointed it at my stomach pokeing my self, then thats when my sister came in and grabbed it. She look at me and yelled no what are u doing i told her you dont no what it like being me....
