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Too Far Away To Hold Me

Camila'a POV

Griffin truly was the sweetest little boy who was very bright for his age. He knew very well as to why he was with Shawn and I but mainly me. Shawn was working but they got to share a conversation before he left. It was adorable to watch the interaction. They were so sweet to each other. Griffin and I seemed to have a great relationship already as well. Though, this is his third visit and he enjoys it which makes me and Riley happy. Shawn is still weary about all of this which is understandable but for the most part, it was going better than I had imagined.

A few minutes earlier
Camila's POV

"Okay...here's his stuff. I'm running a little late but I'll be back at seven to drop him off at his dad's." Riley handed me his book bag and his lunchbox. She had come straight from the school where she picked him up and came straight here. "Thank you...we're going to have so much fun again. Won't we Griff?" I asked, squeezing his cheek, gently as he giggled. "Yeah! Mila is so much fun...so is Shawn." Griffin yanked at his mother's hand. Riley laughed, kissing her son's head before turning back to me.

"Thank you again...for doing this. I know that this isn't the most normal circumstances." She looked down. It was so sad to see her feel like a burden. When honestly, I found her quite nice and we seemed to get along just fine. Especially her son and I. I pulled her into a hug, "no worries. It's no big deal at all, really. I love kids." I assured her. She sighed but her face soon lit up, "hey...do you want to hang out tonight? Just us girls? I can pick you up and we can like...hang out and get to know each other."

Was it crazy to be hanging out with Shawn's ex? Only a little bit but at the same time, I didn't want to hold that against her because the past is in the past and I have no control over it and, it would be nice to be able to get to know her more and not just know her as Shawn's ex.

"Sure...that seems like fun." I smiled, genuinely. "Cool...I'll see you later then. Bye buddy, mommy loves you." She kissed his head before leaving for work.

Present
Camila's POV

Currently, it was five in the evening and Shawn would be home any minute now. Griffin was fast asleep. The movie we were currently watching probably knocked him out.

"I'm home, baby." Shawn kissed my forehead then moved to kiss my lips. I shushed him and he looked over to see a sleeping Griffin. "Ohhh...sorry." He laughed, softly. Shawn and I were able to do our own little thing for awhile and even shared a few intimate moments before Griffin woke up just in time before his mother was to come back to pick the both of us up.

It completely blanked my mind to tell Shawn that I'd be going out with Riley. "Where are you going?" He leaned on our bedroom door. He knew me too well. He knew that I'd only settle for comfortable clothes when working from home or just being at home in general. I was in skinny blue jeans and a basic white tee, "oh...I forgot to mention it. Riley asked to hang out tonight...when she comes to pick up Griffin." He came closer and wrapped his arms around my waist. "Why?" He was bitter about it and it wasn't something I could blame him for.

"She just...wants to get to know me. Plus, I'd like to get to know her as well." I crossed my arms in front of him, knowing that he would as well be getting defensive. "Listen, I don't think that's such a good idea. We're already taking care of her child." He licked his lips and ran a hand through his hair. "That's exactly why I want to get to know her. We're taking care of her child. I really don't care that she's your ex girlfriend, Shawn." I watched, intently as he paced around the room before stopping to say something else, "but you should care, Camila!" He yelled, angrily. I shushed him, "Griffin is downstairs, quiet down." I scolded him.

He rolled his eyes at me, "you don't fucking care and frankly, I have no idea why. She's my ex girlfriend and I don't even trust her yet you're over here doing all these things for her. I just...I just don't get it. Is this your way of getting back at me for something? I didn't do anything." I was taken aback by his words. Me? Getting back at him? How dare he think so shallow of me. He couldn't think of it as me being a kind human being who was doing this for her family, not to get back at Shawn or to ruin his day, or life.

"What's wrong with you?" Is all I could manage to spit out. I was angry and hurt but I knew that there was a child downstairs and the last thing I needed was Griffin going to his mother saying that he overheard fighting. Shawn looked up at me with hooded eyes and furrowed eyebrows, "what's wrong with me?" He chuckled, "what's wrong with you? I...I don't understand why you'd even agree in the first place. Yes, her son is an amazing little guy but we don't even need to be doing this. You don't know her, Camila. You don't know her like I do." He shook his head at me. I was about to say something but was cut off by the doorbell. I didn't move yet, though. "You should go." He muttered, walking past me into the extra bedroom.

I no longer wanted to go. Not because of anything Riley had said or done but because of the state I was in with Shawn. But, I pushed that aside for now, knowing that he needed time to cool down and so did I.

"Hey, Riley." I greeted her, putting on a fake smile and bringing Griffin along with me.

The night was fun. We sat in a local cafe/bookstore and talked about things in life but I of course ignored talking about the fight with Shawn that was haunting my mind. Riley was truly a nice women to me and we got along very well. We had similar music taste but that was about it. We were complete opposites but yet, it worked for us. I never had many friends so Riley was as close to a friend as I got. Shawn didn't truly understand that, though. I cherished him but I needed someone I could talk to about him. It was different when you had a friend and although I never really had a friend, I knew as much as I should.

Riley had used the term 'good friends' when describing our relationship and it made me happy to know that we were friends. It's what I needed. We even planned on meeting up again soon which filled my mind with excitement and I needed that to get my mind off of Shawn.

When I returned home, all the lights were shut off but there was no sight of Shawn. Not even in our bedroom. Slowly and quietly, I turned the doorknob to the extra bedroom that was never used and to no surprise, he was fast asleep.

It pained me to know that he was so upset with me that he couldn't even handle being in the same room as me. It was only 9:02 PM yet he was already asleep which was never like him. Usually, him and I would cuddle up on the couch watching different movies and documentaries until about 11 and then, we'd retire to the bedroom together and do our nighttime routine together. But tonight, I was alone in that whole process.

Alone, I watched a documentary and the whole time I thought of how much Shawn would've enjoyed it. The clock to my right read 11:15 PM and that was my cue to get ready for bed. I stripped and changed into more comfortable clothes, washed my face, brushed my teeth and met the cold sheets. I cuddled into one of our bigger pillows, hoping that my mind would trick itself into assuming its Shawn but I had no luck. Sleep wasn't going to come easily tonight.

This is what it felt like if Shawn and I were no longer in each other's lives. It hurt deeply and the thoughts of him lingered. Although, he was just across the hall, he felt so far away. He was too far away for me to hold him and he was too far away for him to hear my quiet sobs and my pleading that he'd come back to bed with me. I desperately waited for hours that he'd return back to our room but he didn't. I silenced myself by chewing on my lip. We had small disagreements but never like this, it never ended with us going to bed apart or sad or angry. But tonight, I went to bed apart from him, sad, and angry with him.

A/n

It was expected that this situation with Riley and Griffin would have a slight toll on Shawn and Camila's relationship...I mean, I agree with Shawn but then again, Camila is also in the right.

What do you guys think?

Anyways, I actually really like Riley but Shawn CLEARLY cannot say the same :)

Anyways it's 3am and I am going to DIE. Goodnight:)

-Allison (<- THeReS mY nAmE)