Arshi TS: Mann Bharraya

Part 1

Ve methon tera mann bharrya
(Oh! you are no longer interested in me)
Mann bharrya badal gaya saara
(You no longer love me, you have changed completely)
Ve tu mainu chhad jaana.. Gallan teriyan ton lagda ae yaara
(oh! you will leave me.. It seems like from your talks)

Khushi sat thinking at the poolside. The past whole month just flashed through her eyes.

Khushi's PoV:

From the time Sheetal has entered Shantivan, she cannot remember Arnav and herself spending more than 5 minutes together. Happily. Peacefully. From the day Sheetal and Aarav has entered her life everything seems so farce. Everyone, each of her relation which she thought to be her family is comparing Aarav with Arnav, her HUSBAND. How Aarav eats like Arnav. Walks like Arnav. Talks like Arnav. Breathes like Arnav. In front of her. His legally and ritually wedded wife. And Sheetal, listening to all this comparison, the way she smiles or looks at me, its like she is sympathizing with me. Mocking me. And her husband, he does not seem to care at all. From the day he saw the DNA papers in my hands, he has not even talked to me. He just stormed out saying she does not trust him. Did not even gave her a chance to tell him that she did not do these tests. She has no idea how this paper came on her name.

Gal gal te shak karda, Aitbaar zara vi nahi
(you doubt me on every single thing, you do not trust me at all)
Hunn teriyan akhiyan 'ch, Mere layi pyar zara vi nahi
(Now, in your eyes, There is no love for me)

From the day Arnav found the DNA papers in my hands, he has not spoken to me. He just gets up early in the morning and goes to office with Sheetal and Aarav. Oh, they have to drop Aarav to school also right. Like a perfect small family. Arnav has not even asked her if she even actually did the test. He just assumed the worst of her. Just like he did at the Shyam fiasco. It is so easy for him to doubt me. Does he not have and ounce of trust on me. He is always busy with Sheetal discussing work or reminiscing his old college days. And otherwise busy with Aarav. Playing chess and video games. Who thought ASR who does not even like children will play with him. But how can she forget, its not any kid. Its his ex-girlfriend's son. Who is just like him. In the past month neither Arnav has looked at her, neither asked her how she is. Seems like he is just not interested in me. Like he is fed up of me. Like he has left me and just living in the same room as strangers.

Mera te koi hai ni tere bin
(I have no one but you)
Tenu mil jaana kise da sahara
(you will have someone to support you)
Ve tu mainu chhad jaana ,Gallan teriyan ton lagda ae yaara
(oh! you will leave me, It seems like from your talks)

I have always craved for love. When I was not been given the same love as Payal Jiji got because I was adopted, I told myself to be happy. Considered myself to be lucky to at least have a family. A roof over my head. But is that enough. The only thing I dreamed till now was having a partner who will love me. Who will consider me his family. Not any responsibility or any burden. When Arnav married her the first ime, she lost her adopted family. They disowned her. Called her names, broke every relation with her. Just to save their own daughters marriage. When Arnav married her the second time, she thought she did not get only a husband but a family who will love her like their own. But who was she kidding. This family never accepted her from their hearts. They spoke to her nicely only because she their Chote/Arnav Bitua/ Bhai's wife. I am sure if I was not his wife, they would not have even cared about her. Just like now how they don't care how much they are hurting her by ignoring her and comparing that kid with her husband. Now to think of it Arnav has everyone. Even her family talks with him nicely. As he is ASR and their daughters Jethji. And her. She does not have anyone. Neither her adoptive family. Neither the Raizadas. Not even her husband.

Pyar mere nu tu, Ve mazak samajh ke baithae
(You think my love for you is a joke,)
Main sab samajhdi aan, Tu jawak samajh ke baithae
(I understand everything, you think I am a kid)
Tu waqt nahi dinda, Mainu ajj kal do pal da
(You do not have time for me these days)
Tainu pata nahi shayad, Ishq vich injh nahi chalda
(I think you aren't aware, this doesn't work in love)

From the time Arnav has married her the second time he seems to have lost interest in her. He does not talk with me freely, smiles with me, laughs with me the way he used to do all this before the marriage. I know he thinks I am young. I am childish. But isn't she the same Khushi he has fallen in love with. Did not he say that he loves me as I am. She knows, she is the first woman he has loved as a man loves a woman. But is love enough. Is it not important that you should make your partner feel loved everyday. Does Arnav even love her now.

Tu sab janda ae, Main chad ni sakdi tainu
(You know everything, I can not live without you)
Taan hi taan ungallan te, Roz nachauna ae mainu
(And that is why, you make me dance on your fingertips everyday)

Arnav knows I love him. Love him more than anything. Love him more than her own self. And I will not leave him. He knows how I have promised his mother to be with him. Forever. Is that why he takes me for granted everytime. Is that why he does not respect my love for him. Does not even acknowledge me now. But does not her own parents expect the same from him. To be there for her. Always.

Agle janam vich allah, Aisa khel racha ke bheje
(In next birth, Oh Lord! do something such that)
Mainu tu bana ke bheje, Tainu main bana ke bheje.
(I become you, and you become me)
Ve fer tainu pata lagna,
(And then you will realise)
Kiven pitta jandae paani khara khara (how one drinks the tears
Ve tu mainu chhad jana)

I look up at the stars. To her parents and his mother. Looks like they are also sad and so are not twinkling as brightly. I ask them, would he be still with me if I was at his place. Would not he be jealous seeing me everyday with another man and his child behaving exactly like me. Would he not flip out hearing people considering me a family with them and not him. Would he not feel hurt. Would he not cry. Only If he was in her shoes. Then only he would know. This pain of love.

With this thoughts lingering her mind, khushi dozed off on poolside with tear stains on her cheeks.

Khushi just wished for him to be at her place and feel the pain she's feeling now. Did their parents listen to her wish from the skies. Let me know what are your thoughts. As you know Khushi is Devi Maiyyas special child. Might be her wish get completed in next part.

This is my very first attempt at writing. Please let me know what do u think of this. I will surely take every suggestion while writing the next part. ❤