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Let's Go ||Chapter Five

Rainbow Adams...

I was sitting on my bed waiting for Mica to come and fetch me, it's funny how I'm not under these sheets hiding away from the world and just having the fear I won't make it out alive. I have been thinking for the past three days ever since Mica tried to reason with Lily and the other doctors that I should leave the hospital and make the most of this time just to live.

I've tried to come to terms with myself that I shouldn't think so negatively nowadays, even though it's what I do every single day about the fact you just be trapped in a body that is busy dying or shutting down slowly but surely knowing when it's game over.

I got up and stood in front of the window, soon I'll be out there walking those streets and just breathing a different air that will surround me for the time being. I can't wait actually. "Alright, do you have everything? But then again I'll always get it when I come home" Mica said as he was looking through papers. Probably my discharge forms that needs to be filled.

I forgot to mention that Mica and I will be living together, I don't know how it came to this but I'm not complaining. He said that I need a nurse with me 24/7 in case anything happens to me. Sounds like a fucking babysitter to me. But then again it's Mica and we have actually gotten to know each other for the short period of time and I'm glad that his doing this for me. Plus he suggested that I should live with him since Lily is a mother of twins that needs to be taken care of. I didn't want her to be worried about me and her children, so why not live with Mica who's single and alone.

"I got everything that I need Mica, I'm just going to miss this view. It's truly a breathtaking view that you just can't forget." I said as I was staring out at the beach that's not so away from here and the deep blue sky with light clouds trying to be invisible but failing at this point. I'm going to miss this room, I've spent my whole life living in this room and it changed alot due to my mood. Because I have ADHD disorder since I was ten years old, so I would change my room for someone to help me because I just wanted them to be near me or acknowledge me for once.

I know in the beginning I said I didn't want to be in someone's company because I feel they'll get sick of me and leave me. It's hard to be social when you're really not. But that's my life for you ladies and gentlemen

Mica stood next to me and looked out the window then looked down at me, how did I know you ask? I can feel his stare burning on the side of my face and I felt like screaming for some reason but I looked back at him and stared into those green eyes that I adore so much and couldn't bare to look away. His eyes are my favourite, it's green with this hint of gold or yellow colour going into the green. His beautiful.

Lily cleared her throat then walked in on us while we were lost in our world.. That we'll soon create. "So, you all set, huh? Please call me if you need anything Rai, please I'm one call away from whatever you need. You can even come over for the holidays Juan and Mordecai are dying to meet you love." Lily said as she held my hands tightly while trying not to cry. But failed.

"Lily I promise I'll call you everyday telling you about my day, about my first bike ride, about my first attempt to cook. I'll tell you everything and I'll absolutely come over for the holidays to meet the famous Hawkins Twins their mother love so much." I said while trying to hold back my tears but failed as Lily pulled me into a hug that lasted for a few minutes. I'm really going to miss her, my very first best friend.

Mica came up to us and looked at me with a small smile," it's time for us to hit the road. I'm seriously tired to be honest. So shall we leave? You ready?" He asked me as he was taking the rest of my bags and walking to the door waiting for me.

Well then I'm finally leaving this place for once, I hope everything goes well for me until its game over. Oh well at least I'll be making the most of it," I'm ready to leave this shit hole for once." I said as I walked out the door and went to the elevator. Mica followed behind then pressed the button for going down.

I'm actually nervous to step out and see the world for what it truly is and standing in front of the window is not going to tell me shit. The elevator doors opened and we stepped in facing the place I'll never come to see again, before the door closed I looked at Lily one last time while she was trying her best not to cry her eyes out again. I smiled at her then...

The Elevator closed on us.