An Elegy For my Dead Feelings

By: Vergil.Lly

I

I've been longing for your rare love
But it always seem to be a wound from a knife stab
I wanna catch you and keep you with in my arms
But I must not,'cause I know that someones in your heart.

II

How can I say my love if I'm nobody
For you I'm just a bland; ordinary
I really wanna move,confess the words of heart
But I'm constraint by the fear that you'll tear me apart.

III

'cause I'm pretty sure, unreachable star
That loving you of all desire will surely make a scar
I really wanna run on you and hug you very tight
Even I know that loving you isn't already right.

IV

Your fairest smile invites me to stare on you
I tried to ignore it, but nothing's I can do
On a cold mid year,you shine
And all I want is to feel your warmth.

V

How is love? I don't even recognize
Since then, and you had made realized
That it isn't easy to get what you find
It's not quick to show the feelings behind

VI

But I know that I must not dream of it
You have your happiness now,no need for me to admit
Though giving up on you and losing you I couldn't face
But to dream of you loving me,and loving you is worse.

VII

'cause I'm on a long time daydream
I always she'd a tear when I'm awaken
I wish I could escape this sugar sweet nightmare
I hope I'll never fall again with your spell.

VIII

I hated you the way I hated myself
For falling in love with you,when you've done nothing yet
I'm down with all the sweetest things I thought of you
And knowing that you had a lover broke me in two.

IX

I feel so sick strolling in a roses garden
At first the scent I smell was that of heaven
Further at last because of much enjoyment
I was hurt by thorns of reality ,my fastest detriment.

X

I can't blame you,but myself
It's all my fault 'cause I loved you untold
Of all the sweetest words, I will tell you one
'cause I know even I do, it will do no fun.

XI

All I will keep my love for you with in me
So I couldn't bother you and your lover who's free
I'll keep it on my heart and will soon exhale it
And don't you worry,it will always be a secret.