Secret Passion

1

Beep Beep Beep
"Ugh this fucking alarm"
I sit up on my bed. The alarm continues to beep.
"Bitch, I'm up"
I get up and head to the bathroom. I look in the mirror, and believe me when I say I look like shit.

*Knock knock*
" Eli, get up you will not embarrass me and your father by being late"

I squeeze the sink to keep from saying something that will surely get me a beating
"Yes, mother I am very sorry. I am just making sure everything is perfect. I wouldn't want to ruin our family reputation"
"Tuh as if you could ever have a reputation as important as me and your father"
"Yes I know mother"
I wait to I hear the sound of her foot steps walking away
"Bitch, both of your reputations are trash anyway and that's why dad is sleeping with the neighbor. But I guess that wouldn't matter cause your just of a whore. I'm not even sure if that my actual dad. Ugh I wish I could just end you guys already"
If you wondering if I'm being a little harsh trust me compared to the things they have done to me I'm far from it. Once in the second grade I forgot a note  while performing the Viola. Even though I received many compliments, my parents caught the mistake. As a punishment I received a beating from both of my parents. That also included 20 whippings on my back. After the punishment my parents told me
"You should be happy we went easy on you. Now remember that you are already a mistake so every mistake you make reminds us, and mistakes have to be dealt with"
As if that wasn't bad enough I also wasn't allowed food for a week. If it wasn't for a teacher I would have starved.

I brushed my teeth and do my daily facial hygiene. Since I take baths at night I just applied lotion and perfume to my body. I walk to my wardrobe to find a outfit. Not really feeling dressing up today. I find a pair of light blue skinny jeans. A black and white Stray kids graphic tee. A white belt and white vans.

After getting ready I head downstairs. My dear parents are heading out now.

"Since you want to be lazy you can walk to school Eli. Plus you need to loose a few pounds your getting fat. So I took your hair keys. Don't be late"

"Yes, Father I know I will just have breakfast at school. I will start now."

"Ahh, yes remember you graduate and turn 18 in a week so make sure to have your stuff packed. Remember we have to deal with you until your 18. After that we are strangers."

"Yes mother I remember"

I'm not worried about the things she is saying. I have been saving up since I was sixteen to get out the country.

I head out the door and start my hour journey to school. Of course I arrive late.
"Great, I just needed another beating today"

If your wondering no I am not the popular girl in school. I am actually the complete opposite. I am considered the schools nerd. Even though I don't dress like one. I guess because I am anti-social and super smart.

I head to my locker to get my books. Out of nowhere my front is slammed into the locker.

"If it isn't the ugly duckling"

That would be my day one bully Allisa. Her and her two minions are the schools girls to be.

"Did you hear what I said? I wonder if she has went mute"

"It's deaf stupid bitch" I whisper

"What did you say to me?"

"Nothing"

She smashes my head against the locker. I squeeze my hands into fist and shut my eyes, to keep from tearing this bitch apart.

I don't understand it's like a feeling inside me. A deep anger that I had to teach myself to control. Because if I didn't I would loose everything. I am just waiting to I graduate so I can finally use all my hurt and anger for something. I am sick of being this weak bitch everyone thinks they can run over. And trust when I say I will get my revenge.

"That's why your family disowns you ugly ass nerd"
She continues to punch me in my back and I just sit there and take the pain. I have had much worst.

After she finishes she turns me around and spits on me. Her and her minions walks away and people walk past laughing. I just use a piece of napkin to wipe my face and head to first period.

This is usually how my days go at school except I usually run into Allisa and her minions again.

*Week later*
Today is my graduation and I also turned 18. I am getting ready for the graduation ceremony. I have to wear something that will cover my arms and back because I got another whipping last night. I forgot to turn in my last essay to my English teacher, which I didn't need because I have a A in her class anyway. But she contacted my parents to tell them that I didn't need to turn it in, and they went off. Probaly one of the worst beatings I've had.

Anyway I find this long sleeve black dress and some black heels. I cover some bruises on my face with concealer. That's about all the makeup I use except some eyeliner and lipgloss.
I head down stairs . My parents aren't there so I'm guessing they already left to the ceremony.

I know you may be wondering why I want them there a part of me just has hope that if they see me walk across that stage they would be proud of my for once.

I head to my car and head of to the location. I get there and I am directed to the my seat in the front row since I am  Valedictorian.

*2 hours later*
My name is finally called I stand and walk to the stage. While I'm excepting my diploma someone yells out
"ugly duckling"
The whole student section starts quacking and laughing even the parents. I look in the bleachers and find my parents laughing also. I just keep walking with my head high. To the audience I am presented as calm, but in reality my blood is boiling. I walk off stage to my seat and wait until it's my time to give the speech.
*1 hour later*
I am called to the stage. The audience starts laughing again. I got to the mic.

"Hello Students and Parents of North Central High School. I am Eli Taylor you Valedictorian. I am supposed to give a speech to encourage my peers to reach for success in the future. And how they are all so amazing."
I pause and look at the audience and my blood boils I smirk.
"But fuck that and fuck you all. This building is nothing but a hell hole. All of you fucking retards have your heads so far up your ass that you find it funny to disparage someone because of their effort in school. I think it's funny how I claimed the name nerd yet you won't call the biggest whore in our school out.  Yes I'm talking about you Allisa. The only reason you are probaly even here is because you slept with the fucking principal. You know if you had open books as much as you do you let's then you probaly would know something. And my dear parents, my lovely parents. You both can choke on a dick and die. I have never asked for you to keep me. Shit I would have probably been better in a foster home. All you care about is your fucking perfect reputation. I wonder what everyone would think of there reputation when I tell them how you have beating me for the last 15 years of my life. How dad snuck into my room at night to punish me for my actions by taking placed where no father should touch. Or how Mom would blame me for it and punch me repeatedly in the stomach. Well boo fucking woo to you. Cause guess TF what all of you in this room thought you could break me but tricks and you..." I turn remove my gown and shoe the audience my back. They gasped. I point to my back and turn back around. "This are my fucking battle scars and reminders of the shit you have done to me. When I return you all will regret evening thinking of looking at me wrong. I swear to you on this day when I return hell will be present and you will realize the things I am capable of."

I walk off stage and grab my diploma. I head to my car and pull off heading to the house. When I read the house I rush upstairs and grab all my clothes that are packed in my suitcases and everything else with value to me. I reach under my bed and pull out the stacks of money I have been saving. I grab everything and head to the car. I throw the stuff in the car and stuff the cash under the carpet of my trunk. I pull off heading towards the airport. No one knows that I applied to Princeton school of business and got in. I also got a full ride. I arrive at the airport and since I already have my ticket I check my bags in stuff my money in my shirt. I board the plane. I look out the window.
"It's time for the she devil to arise"
I fall asleep with a sinister smile on my face.