Take Me Home (GirlxGirl) (Lesbian)

-TWO-

Alex's POV

(Breathe Me - Sia)

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I wake up with a massive headache. I groan because it hurts so bad so I keep holding my head and close my eyes, trying to reduce the pain.

"Fuck!" I scream out loud.

It happens every morning and I still can't get used to it. I look at my alarm on my nightstand, it's 4.30AM. Still too early to start the day but I can't go back to sleep.

I decide to take a shower, feeling the hot water streams down my body and it helps me to erase the pain in my head. I get out from the bathroom and go to the kitchen and grab a beer. Shit, my fridge is nearly empty.

I sit down at the kitchen counter and sigh, pinch the bridge of my nose, take a deep breath and remain silent. This silence calms my nerves. I like being alone and not talking to anyone because I hate their stupid faces and I hate being with people.

They are just full of shit and they are fake. So many fake faces and I can't take that anymore except Heather, my best friend. But she is still out of the country because she has been invited to attend her parent's wedding anniversary and misses school for a couple of days.

She is the one who understands me. The one I can count on, the one who is real, the one who doesn't give me a pity look, the one who gets my back every time I fall, the one who will stand for me when I'm alone and the one who will always be by my side.

I hate the fact that I have to deal with school alone today. No Heather, no talk. I come to school earlier than usual and stay at the soccer bleachers and take a cigarette. I light it and feel the smoke fill my lungs and I blow them when I look at the sky. I like doing this, it calms me down besides the alcohol. Yes, I'm still underage but I don't give a fuck.

After I finish my third cigarettes, I go back to the school building and heading to the library, my second safe haven. I put my hoodie on and walk towards the hallway when I bump into someone.

My gaze meets someone's eyes and believe me, those blue ocean eyes are drowning me in. She has this strong aura in her eyes. Yes, she. She looks at me differently, not like the others. Oh well, maybe she doesn't know who I am because no one dares to talk about me ever again after the incident. No, I don't wanna talk about it anymore. It's enough, it tortures me to the deepest level of pain in my heart.

But I avert my gaze to another direction before I can't stand on my own to see those blue eyes. She doesn't say anything nor do I. I glance at her one more time before I walk to the library and exhale hard.

I know she has something underneath her eyes but I don't know what it is, but one thing I know for sure : I like seeing her eyes. For the very first time besides Heather, someone can take a look into my eyes without fear and I admit it, she has the balls to see through my eyes even though I didn't give her a clue about the story beneath them.

I spend my first and second class boringly, I have a break on my third period which I spend it in the library. I don't even know why I'm still here after what I've done a whole year prior.

I don't know why people are keeping me, try to keep me sane by sending the teachers to watch after me. Honestly, they disturb me but I don't care. I don't feel the need to talk to them to back off.

Maybe they believe that I have changed so they stop watch after me last month and I'm free on my own for a month now. I have fooled them, I can smoke my cigarettes in the bleachers because no one dares to go there since I 'claim' the bleachers -this side of the field- for myself. Stupid people and their stupid faces, they won't get near me, believe me.