ONE SHOT- WATTPAD LOVE- Jules Tragedy

Shane had a wicked grin on his face. He locked the door and started approaching me. "Got ya!" he said vigorously. 

“I just want to sleep. A coma would be nice. Or amnesia. Anything, just to get rid of this, these thoughts, whispers in my mind. Did he rape my head, too?”

― Laurie Halse Anserson, Speak

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It has been a few months since Shane took the only gift that was mine to give. The only thing a woman has the right to control was her own virginity, and he stole that from me. Yes, perfect, innocent Jules finally had something tramatic happen in her life.

"Mrs. Strawberry I brought you a bag of Ruffles," offered Even returning from the vending machine.

"Even Ruffles can't cheer me up right now. He raped me and now I am pregnant with his child. Don't you get that. I will always be reminded of that night. I have a perminate reminder. The worst part is that I still feel sorry for him, even after what he did to me." I exploded in the waiting room causing everyone to stare.

"Julie Woods", stated the nurse.

Evan grabbed everything and followed me into the room. This experience has really changed him. Instead of me always trying to understand what he has experienced and try to comfort him, he is now the rock that I lean on. It feels like we have switched roles, and I am the victim and he is the sweet, can't do anything wrong, Evan. I find comfort in knowing he is still here for me, and didn't take off because things got difficult. Despite everything he goes through, he always manages to survive it.

I forgot to mention that Evan and I married. You may have noticed by the last name that nurse called me. Evan married me to help me protect my reputation. Everyone believes that I gave myself to Evan and got knoced up, and we only married to cover it up. It wasn't anything special. We just eloped before the judge at the court house. 

After peeing in a cup, the nurse took me through the routine of checking my blood pressure, weight, and pulse. Confirming everything was good, she led us to a room. Today, I was to be checked to see if I was dialated. I was already 38 weeks pregnant. However, I never bothered to find out the gender of the baby. It wasn't that I wanted to wait and be surprised, but rather that I just didn't care. I wasn't happy about being pregnant, but I also believe in life. I figured if I decided I didn't want the baby, at least someone else could take it off my hands. I know it is kinda late, but I haven't yet arraged for adoption or anything. I guess it is that I don't want to face that this is really happening because then if I face it, it makes it real.

Evan was sitting on a stool, making immature jokes about all the signs on the wall. Signs displaying the ins and outs of a womans body. He does anything these days to try and make me laugh.

"Well, Mrs. Woods let's see what we have here," said the nurse as she slipped on her gloves. I felt extreamly uncomfortable and exsposed, even though I was dressed in a robe. I didn't even realize I was sqeezing my knees together until the nurse informed me to relax and open up. Blushing, I did as she directed, ready to get this over with.

"I would say you are right at..." trailed off the nurse.

Interrupting her, I began freaking out "Oh my God. Woah! Oh my God! What is happening? Oh wow?!?! It feels like Niagra Falls it coming out between my legs."

"Your water just broke and you are dialted already to 4 cm. We are going to have to take you to labor and delivery. You are having this baby today," the words sent me into an underlining panic.

I started pushing, thinking I had to poop, only to be informed I didn't have to poop and that was the baby coming. I tried to tell the nurse, "I have to use the restroom. You don't understand, forgetting that I had a catheter."

I heard a loud cry and the doctor annouce, "It's a girl."

The details in between are a blur because I had passed out.

Evan walked in carring a baby girl wrapped in a blanket. He handed her over to me whispering "Her name is Diana, after my mom." Hearing Evan inform me of something else of himself, made me smile. This was the first time I ever heard Evan mention his mom's name. I found comfort in it.

I looked at Diana.

It was at that moment, my world changed forever from the way I knew it. My daughter stole my heart, I love her, and she will forever be mine.

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4 years Later

"I w-wuv dad-d-dy," stuttered Diana.

"I love you too sweetheart," said Shane.

"D-dad-dy why are you behind that glass?"

"Daddy did some bad things. I am going to have to stay here for a little while, but..," lifting his eyes up from Diana to Julie "I love you minion, and I hope that you will forgive me."

Jules eyes started to water seeing the sincerity in Shane's eyes, and answered for Diana, "I am sure she does."

"Diana it is time to go," Julie urged.

"Bye Dad-ddy."

"Bye- my sweetheart"

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Life isn't easy, but it is worth living when you are surrounded by the ones you love. As for me, I am no longer existing, or surviving thanks to Evan and Diana, my breaths of fresh air.