Knew Better

Chapter 4

Chapter 4: Bad Decisions
(I ain't gonna understand what I see in you)

I haven't heard from Shawn in the past 2 days, I didn't even see him at school today. Kim and Taylor were also not at school. I didn't really find it too weird so I just continued on with school as usual. I'm currently at home making some evening food. My mom was almost never home so I was always home alone till 7 / 8 pm, but I am not complaining though.

bang bang bang

I jumped at the loud bangs on the door I walked over to the door with a little fear but when I opened it I saw an overly excited Kim barging threw. "Oh my golly gosh Candice Martin !!!!!!" she yelled out throwing her handbag onto the couch. "Oh, hey Kim, I'm fine thanks for asking, how are you?" I said laughing and she rolled her eyes "Hey Candice." She gave me a hug then sat down and got hyped all over again.

" Oh my gooossh ! So I gots to tell you what went down Friday after the field party. So Nathan and I ditched right after I got your message and we went to his crib right, did you know he lives alone in a 2 room apartment, his apartment is so damn nice and decorated perfectly, but enough about that. We talked first then he asked me to be his girl ... and he went down on me !" She told me and my eyes grew wide as I got excited for her too. "You got some. So you guys are official" I asked and she nodded . Damn I guess I'm a loner again Taylor sent me a message telling me she did the deed with the same dude she made out with earlier that day. She doesn't wanna give me a name but it's whatever I guess. " I'm so happy for you boo" I said and we did our lil dance .

We chatted for a few more minutes before she left again. I went and locked the door for safety sake then went ahead and dished myself some food. I sat in the living room watching Power and going through my contacts and something that surprised me was the messages I got from a few people. He's always messaging me when I'm not caring about him.

(MESSAGES)

Shawn : Will you meet me at the park later at around 6pm?
- I have to talk to you .

Me : you forever want to talk . But okay I'll be there just bring me chocolate so that I don't feel like I came for nothing .
--
Devon : Hey baby girl there's a street
party next week Saturday, you down

Me : Yeah you just gotta pick me up I'm down for whatever
--

Taylor : Hey Chasity I think I have feelings for Shawn😶😅. He broke my virginity on Friday at the field party.
-shit that was not meant for you

Me : oh wow, you're unbelievable Taylor. But at least I know that you're actually a hoe who loves seeing people sad and angry.

I wasn't even going to get mad, he's not my boyfie . So whatever. I was still going to meet him at the park because I want my chocolate. I need it after that accidental news.

Taylor

I sat staring at the huge mistake I just made. I know for a fact that Candice will turn against me. But then again why would she it's not like they're dating . So it's whatever. My phone vibrated in my hand and I got her reply.

Candice Martin : oh wow you're unbelievable Taylor. But at least I know that you're actually a hoe that love to see people sad and angry.

My mouth dropped to the floor and I couldn't believe she called me a hoe. Well what the flip. Not my fault he doesn't really want her, jeez.

I guess I made a bad choice and a bad decision ...

Shawn

I sat on the park bench with a Lindt chocolate in hand waiting on Candice to come, after what I did with Taylor I felt bad because I did what I did right after Candice and I had a deep conversation expressing ourselves and our feelings. Then! I go and be an asshole and I fuck her friend . "Way to go Shawn!". As I was deep in thought a shadow was approaching me and I could see by the figure it was a female with nice wide hips. Soon Candice appeared before me .

"Hey." She said and sat down next to me. "Uh. Hi... here" I said handing the chocolate over to her. She smiled a little and thanked me. "Look Candice I done something Friday and-." I looked up at her as she cut me off "-Look Shawn it's okay . I know what you did and it's all good . You don't belong to me and I don't belong to you, right? So you can do what you want. I can't stop you just because I find you attractive and might be in love with you or the thought of you. So, do you boo" she said I looked at her stunned. "You're in love with me?" She the just stared at me the let out a little laugh and then to top it off she kisses my cheek.

This girl and her damn words always leave me speechless. She's so beautiful and her words are so accurate and sweet all the time it's mind blowing. "Wanna walk me back home ?" She asked while standing up. "Yeah sure. No problem." I said standing as well . I stuffed my hands in my pockets and we started walking .

If I have to be honest me and this girl have so much in common and I don't think we even noticed it, well I just did, but I feel like, if we have to get together I'll just break her heart because I'm a player and I just love fucking girls. I can't take a relationship seriously. "Shawn, Shawn !" I looked down at her "Yeah?" I asked "thanks for the walk." She said and I bit my lip unknowingly. "Uh, no problem baby" I said and gave her a sly smirk all she did was roll her eyes. Before she went in she turned and gave me a tight hug and she whispers in my ear saying "I'll always love you Shawn even if you make bad decisions." and with that she kissed my cheek again and left me speechless again.

Something I know she's unaware of is, she doesn't know how much I actually love her and how she has me on a leash ... I think I'm falling for her ...

I hope thats not a bad decision Lord...