hi
this might be weird
just a little bit.
i sadly need to think carefully for a veery long time to actually express who i feel.
nice, isn't it? ahem, no
yknow, i feel like an actual mess most of the time. i'm just not that great of a person. how the fuck are you still talking to me? even with all the shit i can't do? you're either desperate or just... love me a lot.
which i don't understand. at all.
most people probably would give up on me and just leave me cause y e s. i'm a fucking disaster- not someone you'd love hanging out with.
I'm
very
insecure
and
shy
very big problem, yes.
there's just some stuff that you might find very easy to do that are just.. very difficult to me. because of my shyness and my insecurities. i let them control me more than anything or anyone else. and i can't fucking stop these bitches.
BUT.
i feel like i can actually defeat them when i'm with you. all i need is just... your presence. i could do anything just with that.
you make me feel...............alive. yes.
have you ever felt a very warm and powerful feeling just build up in your chest?
well i have. many times. it's either your i love you's, some cute shit you say or even when you call me bb :D
I truly
deeply
love you
everything about you is just amazing and your whole existence just attracted me the second we met. your laugh just makes me the happiest person alive i- it's so BEAUTIFUL. art. everything about you is. even your flaws you're apparently scared to show. bb, it'll only make me love you more. love yourself <3
i LOVE every second we spend together on all these stupid and cringe games, which somehow become so fun and entertaining with you. all those nights spent together... yes. i love it. all of it. i dont ever want it to end. who even cares if i'm tired as shit the next morning. all i need is ahmi loo.
nothing more.
it's the small things. those hoes make me love you more and more every day.
we could be homeless bitches and i'd still be happy to be with you (although, it probably would be better if we actually had... somewhere to stay. hopefully our future house ;))
