Take Me Home (GirlxGirl) (Lesbian)

-TEN-

Alex's POV

(Awake - Secondhand Serenade)

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I can't sleep. Yesterday was exhausting but my eyes couldn't shut until now. Heather gets ready for school, I stay in the kitchen when she walks out from my bedroom.

"You're not going?" Heather enters the kitchen.

I shake my head. "No, my hand still hurts."

"Okay." Heather opens the fridge. "I'm going to go to cheer practice and stuff, I'll be home at noon but maybe I'll come by at the grocery store. It's almost empty."

"Yeah. Thanks, H." I say.

"Anytime." She kisses my head. "Bye. Love you."

"Love you, too. Drive safe." I say.

"Will do."

Then she leaves. I stay in the kitchen for an hour, enjoying a french toast that Heather has made it plus a black coffee for my breakfast. I don't have something to do so I stay in the living room, watching some movies and reminiscing the moment I have with Logan. Shit, that girl occupies my mind all day long more than I thought I would.

I find myself smiling, I think she's more stubborn than me. She makes her own place here in my heart but I hate to admit that maybe I have a little crush on her.

Come on, who doesn't like her? Blonde hair, blue ocean eyes, kissable lips and kind heart. I never find someone like her before who has the biggest guts towards me.

I feel like she wants to be with me so bad but she doesn't say anything about her feelings. Feelings? Shit, I think I'm over reacting. There's no way in hell that she likes me. I know she cares about me but does she want to be in a relationship with someone who's broken and complicated like me?

No. She doesn't. She will be with someone who's good enough for her. Hell, I'm not even comparable to her in every aspect of life. She's kind, I'm ignorant. She has so much patience, I have short temper. She's lovely, I'm full of hatred.

Fuck. She is perfect and I'm a mess. But why does she care so much about me? Why does she waste her time just to be with me? What's her intention? What's her purpose?

I haven't find the answer yet, but I need to know before I give her my heart unintentionally. Crap, sometimes I do stupid things when I'm around her. It feels like my mind drift to somewhere else and I don't even know what to do.

She can do that. She can distract me from my wild mind. She can make me safe. Her arms are strong, I know she's shorter than me but I'm thinner than her.

She has a will to make sure that I'm safe and sound. No one ever did that to me. No one wants me so bad. No one stays by my side when I'm at my worst.

But she does. Logan does. And maybe, unconsciously, I let her in. Further than I thought.

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"No! Mom! Dad!" I screamed when they slowly closed their eyes. "Andrew! No! Anne!"

"No! Don't leave me! Mom! Anne!" I screamed from my lungs. "Daddy! Andrew! No! Please, no! Don't leave me alone! No!"

"No! Don't leave me! Please! Dad, no! Mom!" I scream out loud from the top of my lungs. "No! Don't! Please, no!"

"Hey, hey, it's okay. Alex, it's okay. It's me. I'm right here. You got a nightmare. Alex?"

I hear someone's talking to me. But wait, I'm sleeping, aren't I? Who's talking to me? And why do they say that they're here? Who are they? Then fear is filling me.